The Last Time I Was Happy Video (MV)

I could have had it all
But I f*cked it all up

I couldn't separate the me from the me
My surface and sub levels intersecting
Disconnecting
I fumbled it all in real time
Outside of myself
Too dust and plant high to stop myself

I threw my barriers up
The very same barriers that have tripped me up
Time and time again
And they failed me most spectacularly

I hurt more for your loss
Because you saw right through me

I want to know love again
I've known love too many times
To continue without it
I would do anything to change myself
But it's too late
I've already failed the test

I could have had it all if I was then were I am now
But the timeline on my heartline is too incongruent