ilylost - scared.. (feat. Ghost of Shadowz) Lyrics

'Cause I can't make you care
You always say "goodbye"
But you've been staying on my mind
It happens every time

We wasted all these years
When you could've been my wife
But now I'm standing on my own
Waiting on your line

Baby, I've been scared
Waking up every day
Thinking "what if you're not mine?"

What if you found someone that's better than me
And worth your time?
I just wanna make you feel beautiful
Make you shine

Baby, I know your worth
They say love is a curse
But I thought a curse would be worse
The only thing that really hurts

Is knowing that there's better than me
And any second you can get up and leave
I've been wiping my tears all over my sleeve
Just so I don't grab the blade and f*cking bleed

Overthinking has been making it hard to sleep
I just don't want you to up and leave

'Cause I can't make you care
You always say "goodbye"
But you've been staying on my mind
It happens every time

We wasted all these years
When you could've been my wife
But now I'm standing on my own
Waiting on your line

I lie awake at night
Wishing you were by my side

But lately I've been so distant
I know it worries you
But I promise I don't mean to
I don't know how to cope

So I just go ghost
But baby, I'm so afraid
That you might just slip away
Leave, block me, and just run away

I'm scared that you'll find someone new
Someone that treats you better than I do
I don't want to lose you
And I can't bare the thought

Of you with someone new
I know I haven't been perfect
I've made my fair share of mistakes
I promise to work hard and show you what you mean to me
Even if that ends up hard to see

'Cause I can't make you care
You always say "goodbye"
But you've been staying on my mind
It happens every time

We wasted all these years
When you could've been my wife
But now I'm standing on my own
Waiting on your line