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This shit what I'm gifted with Ain't no love for simple shit
Got problems of my own But show nobody what I'm dealing with
Dropped a cup, I'm drenched in it Shit was cold, I'm shivering
Knew that gas was fire when I felt high Just off of sniffing it
I'll never know the feeling of watching how big my children get
Don't know how to show my worth and that shit making me feel limited
You don't understand me, but I'm wrong when I get militant
Knew I was good at this, since momma made me work on penmanship
Never showed my feelings when I'm hurt I just disguise it
Wendell called my phone that night, that shit was perfect timing
You ain't never put that gun up to your head, right where your mind is
Was gon erase it all that night, I hope I don't rewind it
Suicidal thoughts, I used to think that shit was childish
At the same time, I think that's what made me demonic
Thinking that my life would be better if I was in college
But f*ck all that, cause I never thought about doing the things that I did
Invested in myself, then I put trophies on my shelf
I think they help me to forget about that girl, but I'm still trying
Say, bro nem got shot twice, I hope they thinking that it's nice
This shit ain't right, I'ma put them boys on blast, new t-shirts when I find them
Ain't no f*cking competition, I sit back and I just listen
But not really think this shit's too strong, came from a different climate
On the highway, I just float, see red and blues, I just go ghost cuz shit, I know that
Sdr might wrap that bitch polyatomic
This shit what I'm gifted with, ain't no love for simple shit
Got problems of my own, but show nobody what I'm dealing with
Drop the cup, I'm drenched in it, shit was cold, I'm shivering
Knew that gas was fire when I felt high, just off of sniffing it