Insignia - Can't Keep It Inside Lyrics

No just cannot keep it inside
No cannot be pushed to the side
Why should I let all of this slide
When where I am and want to be never collide
No just cannot keep it inside
No cannot be pushed to the side
Why would I try to hide
The fact that last night I prayed that I had died

Feels like I'm fighting a battle
No not gonna be subtle
Said battle is internal
And it feels like it's eternal
Try and put on a smile
Every once in a while
Too much emotion to pile
And I wish this was just a trial

Here is the reality
I'm not here for salary
My life's not a tragedy
I just need happiness drastically
Been here a hundred times before
Feels like I'm beaten to the core
I wanna die on this floor
And I don't wanna do this anymore

It's starting to become overwhelming
This silence nothing's helping
Another materialistic purchase
And I'm always searching for a purpose
Another night where nothing feels right
Suppressed ambitions upfront emotions
Pointless exchanges nothing changes
Devil on my shoulder hearts growing colder

No just cannot keep it inside
No cannot be pushed to the side
Why should I let all of this slide
When where I am and want to be never collide
No just cannot keep it inside
No cannot be pushed to the side
Why would I try to hide
The fact that last night I prayed that I had died