Dissolve Video (MV)

I'm afraid of what comes next
So much pressure on my chest
4 AM, laced with negativity
Always searching for positivity
Don't think I can handle this change
Cause the feeling's just so strange
Can't stand another day alone
Can't stand another day on my own
And I keep putting pen to paper
In hopes that things will be better
And I'm hoping I'll get out of this place
So I can finally forget about your face

Seems like the mirror is my only friend
The voice in my head tells me it's the end
Self destruction to resolve
And make all of these thoughts dissolve
Letting go is easier said than done
When I can still pick up the phone
Self destruction to resolve
And make all these feelings dissolve

Always waiting for a call
All I ever do is fall
Lower in this hole
Was that always the goal
Always thinking that I've moved on
But those times have been long gone
And I always get inside of my mind
Thinking that you were one of a kind
Will I make it through another night
I'm not too sure if I can keep up this fight
Because the rain doesn't shine bright
And there's no signs of light in sight
Cause the sky's like my thoughts
And my stomach's tied in knots
If I stopped thinking of September
Things would probably get better
But instead I try and put on a front
Cause lately I've been in a rut
A simple task, put on a mask
Disguise this pain, it is insane

Just give me a glimpse of hope
For once in my life
To keep me away from this slope
And to let me drop this knife
I had a plan for our future ahead
But now I'm always stuck in this bed
I can't believe that we're already done
When I'm still numb from the last one

Seems like the mirror is my only friend
The voice in my head tells me it's the end
Self destruction to resolve
And make all of these thoughts dissolve
Letting go is easier said than done
When I can still pick up the phone
Self destruction to resolve
And make all these feelings dissolve

Why is my mind so hard wired
Deep inside roots uninspired
Why am I always so tired
With a life I never desired
I keep telling all my friends
I wish this pain would end
I'm not doing great at all
No no not at all
I'm not doing great at all
I'm not doing great at all
I'm not doing great at all
I'm not doing great at all

I'm not doing great at all
I'm not doing great at all
I'm not doing great at all
I'm not doing great at all