Introvert - burdens Lyrics

I know it's hard to be at your best
All the time, all the time
But I'd rather be on my deathbed
Before I rest or pretend I'm helpless
Burdens I can't let grow
When I'm hurtin' and can't let go-o-o

Attacks on my spirit
Had paralyzed and limited
All the traction I had
From maximizing my diligence
An interim full of habits
And seemin' like I'm not intimate
Led to grievin' my actions
Or lack thereof
Cus I didn't get
Anything done
I didn't get where I wanna be
First a day, tomorrow's gone
Then another week
I've seen it fade, I followed suit
I shot the breeze
It fired back, I'm too winded
To find a melody

I know it's hard to be at your best
All the time, all the time
But I'd rather be on my deathbed
Before I rest or pretend I'm helpless
Burdens I can't let grow
When I'm hurtin' and can't let go-o-o

My worries shifted
As soon as I understood
To earn a livin'
You gotta turn existence
Into a purpose driven
Workin' ignition
Churnin', spinnin'
Earnest and pertinent in
Multiple facets
Hold the balance
And let the moments happen

I don't ever wanna see a day
Where I give up everything
Cus someone wanted me to stay
Underneath the covers layin'
Where I can't be seen or heard
That's a version of me I hate

I know it's hard to be at your best
All the time, all the time
But I'd rather be on my next step
Before I let my worries be excess
Burdens I once held close
Nevermore, I'm not defined by lo-o-ows