Ivory Rasmus - Purple Lyrics

Elt a bit of panic when I first met you
No clue what was happening but just pushed through
Thought you're cute and kinda nice
And we got mutuals too
Good fit and good hair
That seems so usual for you
So I took all of the chances cus
I'm not good at starting shit
And you seemed to catch onto it
We're seeming like a perfect fit
Not looking to disarm me
In fact you do the opposite
You make me feel empowered,
Wanted,
Needed,
And more positive

I'll go out to los angeles
And see our friends in person
But if only you were going
I'd still go cus it'd be worth it
Pack a bag and book a flight at the last second
Hate that purchase
Hear your voice in every silence
What you'd tell me when I'm nervous

See our future for a purpose
I need you through my lifetime
Wonder how I worked without you
You've been a main lifeline
Love in every second
Calmed in every section
Your honesty is spreading through my soul like an infection

You make me hurt less
Hope I'm worth my urges
Nervous for the first move
Bravado's never courage
Impulsive little lifestyle
I probably deserve it
Told everyone about us
And how, to me, you're perfect

I know it's awkward I feel so strongly
I know you hated distance
And that shouldnt feel this shit
But I'm still all hurt
And that hurt's all me
I always misread you
And I'm sorry
I said I love you
And you were silent
I'm sorry if my freaking out hit you like violence
Our friends are all heart
When will they all hear?
And when they do will they think that I dont belong here?

You could hold me down like aero
Actions point it out like arrows
Bedroom popping just to deal but I'm no clairo
Got my obscolescence sealed
Say that shit's fair though
Where though?

I'm freaking out and steady getting more paranoid
Easily annoyed, blank void I cant ever voice
Told myself that all my f*ck ups made have been a choice
I'm to blame for all the pain felt over all the noise
Realign with my mind for a second
And everytime I do I see my substance being lessened
I always reach out when I'm feeling my depression
I'm lower quality, just feeling the compression

Hero
Since we split my tank is stuck on zero
Tell me if you're waiting while I'm here so
I'm not broken if we never go back
I'm not fine
Heal me, I'm breaking
Grieve connections more than weekly
I'm faking every smile when you see me
I'd fix it if I ever got to go back
It's not time

Would I mess it up again?
What's all this effort in the end?