J. Etienne - Human Condition Lyrics

I know we're all (human)
But oft times I feel so alien
Like I'm not homo sapien
I let the enemy get the say again
As if I don't know the way to win
Bogged down by the full weight of sin
As if Yeshua didn't die to make us kin
But how quickly I forget
His grace is unending, his mercy is legit
I getWrapped up with inner demons
Conflicting and their scheming
To take away my purpose and my meaning
I'm steaming with frustration and doubt
Cuz I don't have a clue of what life is all about
I asked God to show me his divine route
But still managed getting stuck
Couldn't overcome the muck
I was underpowered like a CyberTruck
Bad seemed the only way I see some type of luck
I shouldn't be so pessimistic
Like I'm not next to miss it
But victory I'm blessed to get it
First class with heaven's ticket
God cleanse my soul its wicked
I just wanna be free from my mind's prison
Gotta focus on the King that was risen
Illmatic cuz you know it was written
Why can't I control these thoughts so forbidden
Even when I take strides I still feel low
Why don't I fight for the things I should kill for
Man I'm such a hypocrite
I give great advice but don't practice what I preach
I'm slowly falling out of reach
And slightly out of touch
On the verge of self destruct
So if I disappear again and it's abrupt
Just know I'll return like Horry in the clutch

Pride speaking and I'm here to steal the show
Being on top is the only way I know
Feeding me is the only way we grow
'Cause I'm nothing without my big ego
How about we go to the next level
I'm the best rebel
Guaranteed to break the neck, devil
I'm so extreme like death metal
I'll be the last one standing after all the dust settles
It's all about me myself and I
I'm such a selfish guy
Not coy or ever shy
If you wanna cross I implore you to try
Just be weary for the black that's coming for you eye
That's right I said it
If you say I failed I'd say you're pathetic
Spirit with me so I'm bound to think prophetic
To best me you need to brush up on phonetics
Straightforward this is facile
A light hike in the Catskills
No problemo, no hassle
My throne is seated in my Castle
Somewhere out in Brazil it's that real
I been known to get busy
DMV Stepper, do my thizzie in the city
Cutthroat can't afford to show pity
Big ups to all who chose to ride with me

Hello, it's the voice of reason
All that big self talk's an act of treason
It's blasphemous that you think you're able
When you're placed in shame you'd Cain your Able
All you claim is fable
God provides all the food on your table
Matter fact the Lord provides the table to
He's the connected cable that enables you
To live and breath and have your being
The all seeing, all knowing all freeing
Without him nothing else exists
He's all buckets, no bricks straight swish
The duality of man
You give him an inch he steals all your land
You simply just extended your hand
He came to steal everything he can
And I'm lumped in too
Fairweather, seasonal like pumpkin brew
I think I'm good but I'm also tainted
My canvas shows all my scars are painted
When it comes to life I can't manage
Me and brokenness are fully acquainted
Downtrodden, depressed I do claim it
But there's much more to it, now ain't it?
There is light to shine in
Brighter than any metal or diamond
To grow daily, you can bet that I'm in
To chase after the blessed horizon