One More Time Video (MV)

Filing all the paperwork
I'm patient with my time
I've been managing the stresses
With my breathing I'm a fly
On the walls of every thinking pattern
Watching it arrive
Then I'm putting it aside
But I'm eating like a hive still
Clearly I could go in deeper
Finding me some roots
But I'd probably eat em first
Before I come upon the fruits
I won't find the answer while I'm scrolling on my phone
Shit just make me feel alone
But I wanna be alone
Goddammit did I miss the bus home?
Will I binge another night and pass out?
I don't wanna be a burden no more
Somebody tell Jack I need a way out!
Goddammit did I miss you called me?
I was busy tryna find the reason
No don't you try to pin this on me
Tummy burning but I didn't mean to do this damage I swear!
I swear, I swear, I swear
No I didn't mean to hurt you!
Just hold on, but let go of control
Just watch how cravings come and then they go
Cause one day, you'll finally let it rain
And you'll feel it all
F*ck it one more time
Maybe just one more time
Lemme take us back real quick
Imma tell you how I learned to cope with the bullshit
I was born in a world made out of distraction
And we learned to escape from all of the bad shit
First we hoarded food to make necessity into a drug
Maximized the content of the chemicals that make us want
More so we devise new ways to stack the shit to keep us drooling
Keep it coming till the sugar salty rush is all consuming
I'm assuming that you know my story but maybe you don't
Maybe you don't know about me stuffing tacos down my throat
Maybe you don't know about me waking up in fear and sweat
Body yelling at me telling me that it will make a mess
Watching her she's cleaning out the sink
I couldn't make the toilet
Telling work I'm sick but didn't mention it was self-inflicted
Sure I could avoid this shit and push it further down
But to this day I'm still addicted so I need to air this out
We use the food to cope but then we cope with how we hurt ourselves
Spare the inconvenience of emotion but they'll burn us still
Conveyer belts of coping mechanisms coming down the line
Suck us dry as hungry ghosts of who we really are inside
Despite the challenge I am here to find a way to never cope
No umbrellas keeping me from seeing how it's storming out
I'll get hit by lightning but I'll keep on standing still
And wake up from the dream out there on paranoia hill
Goddammit did I miss the bus home?
Will I binge another night and pass out?
I don't wanna be a burden no more
Somebody tell Jack I need a way out!
Goddammit did I miss you called me?
I was busy tryna find the reason
No don't you try to pin this on me
Tummy burning but I didn't mean to do this damage I swear!
I swear, I swear, I swear
No I didn't mean to hurt you!
Just hold on, but let go of control
Just watch how cravings come and then they go
Cause one day, you'll finally let it rain
And you'll feel it all
F*ck it one more time
Maybe just one more time