Jackintheway - The Wasp Lyrics

I came out of my mom with a
Blanket of anxious damaged thoughts
Framed each situation I fought
As a chance I'd separate and be lost
Misplaced everything that I love
Behind a curtain made of new lies
With more stipulations and conversations
I learned to turn on the siren

I just gotta be silent
Freezing, closing my eyelids
Panic acts like a virus
Spreads to my whole environment
I don't wanna be childish
Fear will make us all crazy
Panic acts like a virus
Panic acts like a virus

You took my soul from me
And you tore my heart to pieces
Someday I'll need to grieve
But right now I need to see

All I know is I'm going home
All I know is I'm going home
All I know is I'm going home
All I know is I'm going home

I learn that it's not too late
To be here right now
The resistance churning and
I'm just swerving my lights around
I set my boundaries around discomforts and
Build these walls so I don't get flustered
But now I wonder if my ship was not meant
To be stuck at the shores I doubt

I flail around like I'm avoiding the wasp at the table
I move away but that just enables
This fear to sink deeper into my ocean
He winks at me with His loving devotion
But I don't feel it yet I'm still soaking in
Pain and fear and the separation
Sameness doesn't appeal
So I don't see you're seeking help

You took my soul from me
And you tore my heart to pieces
Someday I'll need to grieve
But right now I need to see

All I know is I'm going home
All I know is I'm going home
All I know is I'm going home
All I know is I'm going home

You took my soul from me
And you tore my heart to pieces
Someday I'll need to grieve
But right now I need to see

You took my soul from me
And you tore my heart to pieces
Someday I'll need to grieve
But right now I need to breathe