Jackson Hogan - Lonely Lyrics

I know that you were lonely
So why'd you shut me out
I thought you didn't love me
I thought that you were proud
Through all of the stumbling
And all of the suffering
You told me I was your hope
But over and over
You were quick to abandon me
For darker places to cope

Tell me
I'm not a monster
For hating you this way
Hold me
Whisper you're sorry
And swear I'm not to blame
I miss you
I wish I could see you
Embrace you once again
And I would feel your pain
And you would heal my shame

I know that you were lonely
But never saw the depth
I wonder if I only
Knew what you were against
Would it have justified
All of the empty times
I looked for you in the crowd
I couldn't forgive you
When my heart wasn't satisfied
With your excuses and vows

Tell me
I'm not a monster
For hating you this way
Hold me
Whisper you're sorry
And swear I'm not to blame
I miss you
I wish I could see you
Embrace you once again
And I would feel your pain
And you would heal my shame

At my graduation
There's a hole in the cheer
I don't get to hear
Your hollers and your pride
And on my wedding night
You won't get the chance
To watch as I dance
With the partner of my life
You let our future fall away
When you refused support from me

Tell me
I'm not a monster
For hating you this way
Hold me
Whisper you're sorry
And swear I'm not to blame
I miss you
I wish I could see you
Embrace you once again
And I would feel your pain
And you would heal my shame