Family ties, I fantasize about days when they said I'm the one
Feel like it went to my head because I can't stop pumping my head with this nonsense
Give you a piece of my conscience
Tryna find the line between this arrogance and confidence
Do me a solid what do y'all suggest, but
As I digress
I found the finer things in my Godliness
I've been told that I'm the reason people leaving can we have a meeting cause
I got some questions
Was it my life or was it the lessons I'm learning
Discerning the things of this world or discovering purpose
Like will it be worth in the end
Do you find your worth in a benz
Do you find your worth in the sin
I see my brother is hurting and satan is working like he got my boy on the strings
I see depression
I see the lessons I'm learning would help if he just let me in
I seen the pain in his eyes you cannot disguise the things that are happening within
So It's kinda hard to see him
I'm tryna hit the stage like colosseum
And tell em what you taught me like I'm hard of reading
And give em what they need no body fiending
And if I wrote it down then I probably mean it
And honestly been
Thinking bout my pops, should I call to see him but
Been thinking bout my pops, should I call to see him, What
What did I do for your mercy cause I know that I ain't been holding you up
What did I do to deserve you cause I know that you have been running my cup
Over with love can you show me to trust
Like you hold me like can you show me that you enough
And that my present feelings ain't got nothing on you cause it's getting kinda tough
Got my heart hung low cause when my anger comes its blows at the people close to me
So I'm tryna go and reconcile
I know it takes a while, denial been playing since a little child
I apologize to the people that's been caught up in the cross fires of emotions off the wire
On occasion my heart desire to skip on the word cause I overthink if something true
Should I be looking for revelation or should revelation come from You
I don't wanna force nothing but I don't wanna miss you when You move
This send my brain in spiral when I cant decide if I'm tryna confide in the book
But I can't hide from the Most High
Cause He where I hide when I'm shook
I heard if I die then I might find life, So I take kind to the push
Praying and bringing requests to him
So I can find peace reap blessed doings
The lessons repeat so we kept viewing for real