Jacques Aroha - Lost Lyrics

I always say I don't have scars, but deep down there's a sorrow
Always pushed off to tomorrow, and the happiness is borrowed
And I say, okay, what am I gonna face today
Can I see it in a brand new way
Feel the raindrops touch my face
But I'm lost, and I'm broken
I feel defeated, but they say that I'm chosen
Locks on the door with no keys to open
You can't take back a word after all it was spoken
They say I'm strong, but I feel weak
Wanna use my voice, but I can't speak
I'm not willing to open up, not even a peak
It's something like a giant wave swept me off of my feet
With every step that I take, it feels like one step back
How can I make it in this world? Now can you tell me that
I push the curtains forward, now all I see is black
I feel my heart is like a target, like the one on your back
Take a puff, and then another
I've been trying to take the stress out my body, but it's still not enough
Just one drink slowly turns to a dozen
All your peers gonna tell you that you're living it up
But I'm lost, and I'm broken
I feel defeated, but they say that I'm chosen
Locks on the door with no keys to open
You can't take back a word after all it was spoken
They say I'm strong, but I feel weak
Wanna use my voice, but I can't speak
I'm not willing to open up, not even a peak
It's something like a giant wave swept me off of my feet
They tell me I won't make it, but I know I got talent
I've been writing these songs until the sun comes up
I see ambition in your eyes, don't let it be a surprise
When the results come back, not looking like much
And when it all falls down, will you hear me out
I got way too much to think about
My head is spinning round
But I'm lost, and I'm broken
I feel defeated, but they say that I'm chosen
Locks on the door with no keys to open
You can't take back a word after all it was spoken
They say I'm strong, but I feel weak
Wanna use my voice, but I can't speak
I'm not willing to open up, not even a peak
It's something like a giant wave swept me off of my feet