PTSD (feat. Varyant) Video (MV)

See, I don't know why my feelings cold
Why they take my soul and leave me alone
Seems like I can't see and I can't breathe
This pain inside my chest, it's magnifying on the scene
Like what these girls gon' do for me, they ain't looking for love
I wear my heart around my sleeve and now I take that as a dub
This rap game so flawed, it's just the image we hold
These niggas throwing parties while they broke until they get old
You see, I try to talk about my feelings, sometimes I get lost
There's depression mixed with anger, PTSD, final boss
Sometimes I close my eyes and all I see is dirty shots
I got two in my body and got one up in the top
I see my brother crying out, I told him not to watch
I see the pain up in his eyes, I know he heard it from the loss
It's that post-traumatic stress disorder music for the people
I know we all been going through it, this shit getting evil
Like why they always tryna talk to me, I'm tryna work
I got trauma running through my head, I'm knowing that shit hurt
What they tryna talk about, they always tryna talk me out
Everybody always tryna claim they found a better route
I been in my mind all my time and I ain't coming out
It's just like I'm locked inside my head and gotta run it out
See, I don't know why my feelings cold
Why they take my soul and leave me alone
Seems like I can't see and I can't breathe
This pain inside my chest, it's magnifying on the scene
Like what these girls gon' do for me, they ain't looking for love
I wear my heart over my sleeve and now I take that as a dub
My heart not on my sleeve though, I felt pain and let it go
These trials and tribulations made emotions go to waste
Don't give a f*ck about love, before I get pape then I'm okay
I'm riding with a Glock to keep me safe, but I don't wanna blam it
She left me broken, praying liquor fix the damage
And if it don't, then I don't know, I take the mic and talk it out
This shit my therapy session, I hope trauma subside
I'm staying optimistic cause I used to wanna die
Won't take my life but it'd be better, I was never here
It felt like Jodie, scared to face the world ahead of me
Now I need riches, put these bitches in some double C's
Put these bitches in some double C's she spinnin' back again
But hoes don't bring no peace
And my heart can't be broke again
See, I don't know why my feelings cold
Why they take my soul and leave me alone
Seems like I can't see, and I can't breathe
This pain inside my chest is magnifying on the scene
Like what these girls gon' do for me, they ain't looking for love
Wear my heart over my sleeve and I take that as a dub