Lately I just been about my own shit
New number new phone shit
Finna take a soul trip
When I feel low I just get
Don't even recognise myself and I be f*cking all these girls but that won't ever stop me
Can't think about your needs I need my own first
I can't trust nobody else's got my own word
I gotta soul search
Cutting through the ends
Shit don't feel the same again
Ain't welcome at my mums
We still need to make amends
I use to cross the road to go check menace
Every day we spent is cherished
Cos now we gotta check him where he's laid to rest
T Rabz on the block less than the wing that's why I hate the feds
I just pray this time around that he can take the stress
I use to pray for change
Then God gave me a penny for my thoughts it ain't the same
It feels like I made a trade for less
But I embrace the change it's good when everything is new
But it hard to make adjustments when that's everything I knew
And this doubting family be judging everything I do
I don't wanna hear opinions you ain't stepping in my boots
I no longer tell them hold me down cos they might take it literally
I keep my distance but I miss em that's the cost of living free
You never attempted or tried stepping where I'm heading how the f*ck you gonna question me or question my direction that's why
Lately I just been about my own shit
New number new phone shit
Finna take a soul trip
When I feel low I just get
Don't even recognise myself and I be f*cking all these girls but that won't ever stop me
Can't think about your needs I need my own first
I can't trust nobody else's got my own word
I gotta soul search
Tired of f*cking all these girls I need some romance
Feeling alone but can't express that as a grown man
Tryna stumble on my wife I'm tryna divert these errands
I know he's dead and he won't answer tryna dial up my bredrin
Is this insanity or loneliness
Feeling like this can't be Gods but I still know it is
Feels like I got no choice I go with it
I woulda burnt some pages if I knew he wrote this in
Everybody can't come alone
Nobodies perfect always acknowledge when I was wrong
And I want you to do the same I ain't asking you for a lot
But you can do your thing I'm just working I'll carry on
Feeling alone but it's just me and God
Hella shit up on my chest woulda thought I need to cough
Still got nothing to say about it
So all I go do is just pray about it cos
Lately I just been about my own shit
New number new phone shit
Finna take a soul trip I'm
When I feel low I just get
Don't even recognize myself and I be f*cking all these girls but that won't ever stop me
Can't think about your needs I need my own first
I can't trust nobody else's got my own word
I gotta soul search