Jake Darus - All My Fault Lyrics

I'm just gonna let it out
No writtens or nothing right here
But it's the truth

I'll admit I haven't grown up yet
Insecurities are always making me upset
Always making me crying tears at night
I just wish that everything was just gonna be alright
But I don't even know who I am anymore
Do I want to self medicate go to the floor?
I don't want to self medicate anymore
But I still do it and I do know why
I get so obsessed all the time
I get so upset now all the time
Lying to my parents so I let the adolescents
Take advantage of what I have and every single blessing

I just let 'em take advantage because I crave all the company
(All the company)
I just let her take advantage cause I want someone to be lovin' me
(To be lovin' me)
And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault
And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault

Always make excuses for the horrible actions
But I feel so bad when it happens
And I always put you all above myself
And no I never ever been able to love myself
Always hate the fact that I live with CP
And I know everybody else doesn't see me
As a man who is walking with a limp
Used to be so happy I would never be a simp
Never be the one to expose my feelings
Now I do it everyday I can't conceal it
Especially to Mom and Mike I'm so embarrassed
Been an awful son and you've been great parents still

I just let 'em take advantage because I crave all the company
(All the company)
I just let her take advantage cause I want someone to be lovin' me
(To be lovin' me)
And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault
And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault

Given me so many blessings
I don't know what to say
I apologize and I'm really gonna do whatever it takes to change
And I know I don't love myself but I will get there one day