Jake Darus - Life of a Perfectionist Lyrics

Man i've been going through a creationist depression lately.
I need to let something out you know?

Feels like every beat just sounds the same
All my words are becoming erased
Right now there ain't no place to escape
My therapy is turning to disgrace
Feelin' like I'm speakin' too weak
Currently got fragile vocal chords
Everything I say is so critiqued
My mind and I can't take this anymore

Look

I need way less judgment
I put too much pressure on
Feels like I will plummet
'Fore I touch the echelon
Insecure about the stats
So concerned about impact
I forget i'm writing raps
That's just what it is at that
Voice inside is trembling
Mind is disassembling
All the noise is deafening
Man it's so unsettling
Try to journal to release
Meditate to calm the beast
Really craving mental peace
Need perfection to achieve

Life of a perfectionist
Life of a perfectionist

Look

Nowadays I feel like life is movin' way too fast
I can't even stop for gas or take a break at that
Feelin' like a trucker driving just on mountain dew
Don't know what i'm doing but at least i'm getting to
What I say is making money even if it's cents
Pennies to the dollar but at least i'm making sense
When I get depressed I feel i'm trapped inside a tense
Past regret and future worry clouding my present
I wish somebody could see perfection paralysis
If it isn't perfect then I'm livin' so passionless
Callin' up my therapist for psychoanalysis
Rather talk to her because I know she can handle it

Life of a perfectionist
Life of a perfectionist