James Garcia - the party Lyrics

What is my life
Tired of waking up everyday to being sad take away the pain
I still check my phone everyday to see if anybody cares about me
There's no doubt in me
I don't think I'll ever be ok
I used to love to write but you left and that love has been gone
Every time I write I rewrite the song cause I know its wrong
I love you but you don't know I exist so I'm going crazy
I haven't seen my friends in months, how is this a normal life?
A lot of them have moved on but that's just another part of giving up in life
Everybody forgets me when I need them the most
It's like nobody cares, nobody's there, to help me breathe when I'm suffocating
You know I hate this day with the passion in my heart
Everyone's together but we still are far apart
I wish I was with you
But I know you'll never feel the same
Do you think about our first date
Cause I think about it everyday
Everybody wants to party in the limelight
I don't want to now I'm underneath the spotlight
When you drove off to that party with your friends you want the fun to never end
So you make the new kid your boyfriend
Taking a break from living, so I'll never see your face again
When you're too drunk to realize, that you don't even have a life
Party ends, lights are on, you check your friend and he is gone
You wish you didn't leave us on pause
Turn the cameras on
Turn the cameras on
One day I'll have a studio
Where the artists and the music and the people go
Your opinion doesn't matter to me
You had a chance, now there's no backtracking for me
You never told me where the party at
So how am I supposed to save you from that maniac
No time to waste, it's time to burn the whole place
Maybe I'll forget all the endless pain
Not what you expected, I'm feeling neglected
Where do I belong in your life
This is how I really feel about you
If you're going to be rude just end it, I can't believe we even
I'm just a teenager