James Trevor Lucier III - Self Destruction Blues Lyrics

When they talk about me when I'm gone
I hope they have nice things to say
Cuz I have done so many things
That I feel pain for to this very day

I told some lies I threw some fists
I'm more proud of the ones that missed
I told myself that I was fine when I was not
I let my own worst thoughts
Turn me to a man who was lost

I stole a hundred dollars from my mom
I was young and I thought I was strong
And even though I knew that it was wrong
I took it for some long forgotten need

I treat my medication like a joke
Even though taking it's the reason I'm alive
And my mind ain't broke
And even though I wanna be a singer
I choose almost every day to smoke

If I was God I'd be sure to be perfect
But I'm not, turns out life here on Earth is complicated
But it seems to be worth it

In the destruction of myself
You know I don't need no one's help
I'll just sit right here feeling sorry for myself
Making sure the hole I dug is taller than
The ladder that I have
Keep on telling myself that
It really ain't that bad
You know I don't need no one's help
In the destruction of myself

You know I cheated on my girl
I hurt what I love most in my world
I trampled on my good name
My life would never be the same
But she saw me for what I am
A fool trying to be a better man

You know I let my family down
And I don't call when I should
But what's inside me that wants to know about those
Who came before me's scared to find out
What I knew I would

If I was God I'd be sure to be perfect
But I'm not, turns out life here on Earth is complicated
But it seems to be worth it

In the destruction of myself
You know I don't need no one's help
I'll just sit right here feeling sorry for myself
Making sure the hole I dug is taller than
The ladder that I have
Keep on telling myself that
It really ain't that bad
You know I don't need no one's help
I'm just gunna destroy myself