Stopped smoking blunts
To get my mind right
Now I'm tossing & turning
I never sleep at night
Hole in my chest
I ain't been breathing right
Can't believe that goofy
Nigga tried to end my life
Doctors said I should've died
I don't know why I'm alive
I looked my killer
In the eyes and survived
Now I'm hanging on for dear life
While anger clouds up my sight
I think I'm losing my mind
Heartbreaks a bumpy ride
Thought he'd never leave my side
Told me it was forever then he died
Now I cry myself to sleep at night
I wanna call his mama
And make things all right
But I got to much pride
And I'm really hurt can't lie
White flag. I surrender to life
Pushing with all my might
But I'm losing all my fight
Everything's going wrong
But it's gonna be alright
It gotta be
Cause god planted all
These gifts I got inside of me
They tell you half ass stories
Full of whole ass lies
Put in half ass effort expect
A whole ass prize
They give you half ass love
Then break your whole ass heart
Half ass people being halfass there
I used to want approval
But now I don't care
I used to love the club now
You won't catch me there
I used to ask why me
But I know that life ain't fair
I used to love my city now
I hate being here
(why?)
Cause we go through a lot
But only learn a little
Self medicating knowing
That shits detrimental
Chasing memories
When all we need is clarity
Looking to others for our peace
That shits insane to me
We all got different vices
But we share the same pain
We want different trophies
But we're playing the same game
Say we don't want to get burned
Then walk right into the flame
We all lost our way
But you don't hear what I'm saying
Im from the city of broken dreams
Shootouts and serving fiends
Hard to understand
What peace means
Been praying for my enemies
Fighting to find my way
So I can finally breathe
I'm out here looking for me
Somebody pass me the weed
Im really starting to fiend
Can't get no sleep cause
My dreams won't let
Me rest I got demons
Trying not to snap
But I'm looking for a reason
To be unpeaceful
I'm feeling evil
It's getting lethal