Jamian - 6th Commandment Lyrics

Bottled up emotions make me sick to my stomach
I love it
Throw up then swallow it
As a dog returns to it's vomit
I go back to my closet when I'm unconscious and conscious
Heart rate dropping
Blood flow slowing
Heartbeat stopping
My eyes awake in fear of being forgotten
Time in prayer, cling to sound doctrine
My finger twitch on the trigger, the sound is solemn
Life is shallow so I keep my bullets hollow but I know
I don't want to see tomorrow to drown in my sorrows
I don't see my shadow or feel at home at home at all
Who'll be there with my family to cry and grieve this loss
Forgive me if I'll even wake in bed tomorrow
You know it's hard living with guilt and all
Emotions surface, I can't even say that it's my fault
I watched my own downfall and now I'm blacking out
Tell me what life's about without the screams and shouts
What would I do without the voices in my head that's telling me to kill myself and how
Life and death is getting realer and realer
I feel it surface now
The noise is getting loud
A certain side of me foam at the mouth
The other screams and shouts
Like, take me out
I don't deserve to live and want to fake a smile
Standing in my casket's dirt pile of bones and self doubt
My heart is cold for all the pain that I withhold is starting to grow old as it weighs on the soul
I'm not even in control
These eyes close for only God knows
Clean the blood off my clothes as if I slit my throat
Bottled up emotions make me sick to my stomach
I love it
Throw up then swallow it
As a dog returns to it's vomit
I go back to my closet when I'm unconscious and conscious
Heart rate dropping
Blood flow slowing
Heartbeat stopping
My eyes awake in fear of being forgotten
Time in prayer, cling to sound doctrine
My finger twitch on the trigger, the sound is solemn
Life is shallow so I keep my bullets hollow but I know
I don't want to see tomorrow to drown in my sorrows
I don't see my shadow or feel at home at home at all
Who'll be there with my family to cry and grieve this loss