Jasper - Jus' Sad Tingz Lyrics

I've been running away from my problems
For as long as I can remember
I just can't seem to handle it
And I'm bound to lose my temper
When I see all my mistakes
Because I just want to be perfect
But I know that I'm not worth it
I'm just wasted time and breath
I have reasons not to exist
I could read you that list
But I know that'll drive you away
So maybe ignorance is bliss
For now I'll stay silent
Alone on an island in my mind
Where it's bound to stay violent
My brains not too kind
And I just don't have the strength
To do this on my own
But at this point I don't know
If I'm better off alone
Because yes I need your love
And yes that means your time
Because it'd be a lie
To say I was anywhere near fine
For now I'm a ship
Broken and sunken
At the bottom of the sea
Too messed up even to function (Function)

And to the girl that I text
I wonder what'll come next
Will you stick around for once
Or break my heart like the rest
Because I don't need that again
I'm in shambles from the past
And if this won't last
It'll cut me like glass
So just ghost me or something
If you don't really mean it
When you say that you love me
Because I just don't need this
If pain will be the only outcome
I'm worn out and becoming numb
My demons, they can always catch me
Even on my best runs
And right now my best friends
Are turning into nooses and shotguns
And no I don't want to end it
But I hate this, it's no fun
Screaming up to the sky
I'm chained up and hogtied
By life, it's messed up, but oh well
All I think of is saying goodbye (Bye)