Feel like I'm standing on a tight rope
Tryna watch my kite float
The kite is like my sanity
I can't let that fight go
Since I watched them abandon me
I cling to every slight hope
Cause if I let this go ain't no tellin' where my life might go
Still feel the pain from that
I'll never heal the same from that
I use to sit and think maybe I'm the one to blame for that
Thoughts inside my head had me feelin' real ashamed of that
Until I realized they would always go where the fame was at
It used to hurt my feelings when people left from the team
They showed me from the jump people usually ain't what they seem
Watched people go insane when they got a taste of the cream
5 4 play for the rockets 3 2 1 blast to my dreams
And this a wicked life
But never am I sick of life
Cause even if they treat me poor
I'll always live a richer life
The image what they keep me for
But never get the picture right
Back then I'd let em break me would never even attempt to fight
It's like one day I woke up a beast
Now I'm just hopin' to feast
And since I got em afraid of me now they open to peace
Never forget what they said to me I'll still hold the receipts
Try not to pay it attention and hope and pray it decease
It's hard to tell em how I feel
The only thing I know that I could never do is kneel
It starts to take a toll when I keep my feelings concealed
My brother told me never shy away just keep it real
But when I keep it real they make me out to be a villain
And when I keep it real they say I don't know what I'm feelin'
And when i keep it real they make me out to a rat or a snake but dawg its never that important I'm just livin'
Been feelin' so much hate and jealousy
I thought that they would relish me
They treat me like a stranger now
Like they can't even tell it's me
They copy every single move
It hurts they try to sell as me
My spirit makes me fly I don't need a chain to embellish me right
But very secretly
I care bout what they think of me
No matter what I try to do
Opinions always sink in me
I'm sorry if I cut you off
Been really tryin' recently
To get my circle tight before everyone want a piece of me yea
So it's not personal
Been tryna be merciful
I'm cuttin' everything out my life that's really not purposeful
Them boys be switching sides in that area guess they versatile
The past is what it is I ain't trippin' it's irreversible
Never one to lay down
They always make they way round
Been quiet for the longest time
It ain't nothin' to say now
Not happy with they self steady walkin' round w the same frown
I been the king forever still walkin' round w the same crown
Yea
It's hard to tell em how I feel
The only thing I know that I could never do is kneel
It starts to take a toll when I keep my feelings concealed
My brother told me never shy away just keep it real
But when I keep it real they make me out to be a villain
And when I keep it real they say I don't know what I'm feelin'
And when i keep it real they make me out to a rat or a snake but dawg its never that important I'm just livin'