Monday afternoon, I cried alone
'Cause the birthday blues kicked in
Where's my moment been?
First day being seventeen
I swear I romanticised this year
Full of tears, I guess the joke's on me
Fire makes fireworks, I see the sparks fly
And I dared to look deep into your eyes
I fantasised that you'd be as surprised
But you're reality
Fantasies need too much space and time
And I make up all these stories in my head
Like how I'm gonna die
Will I see you in plain sight?
Will you finally care?
Will this be too much to bear?
Were your thoughts ever spared?
And I make up all the nicest things to say
Don't wanna act insane but deep down I'm not okay
Sitting quietly, get misunderstood daily
One day I'll be brave
Realised on the train
Love equals to pain
A stranger at my house
Could be you, could be me
I don't quite know myself
And it's not a joke
I can't quite get along with my own soul
I'm running to somewhere
But no one seems to have an idea where
And I'm growing old
My coming of age passes by, I choke
Don't know how much time
I have left till my poem rhymes
Surprise! Nothing here lasts too long
My golden years and dreams and summer songs
And I wake up from these stories in my head
A momentary glimpse of the guys I could've been
A candle in the wind and a hearse I'm sleeping in
Have you ever heard me scream?
And I wake up in the misty morning air
Rained on pillowcases and danced in hurricanes
Body under blanket, looks like hills with caves
An island full of haze
No one dares to stay
Love equals to pain
And I try to put these into words
But no one seems to like my world
Tell me how much do I worth
Tell me if I'll ever get heard
And I try to put these into words
But no one seems to like my world
Tell me how much do I worth
Tell me if I'll ever get heard
And I try to put these into words
But no one seems to like my world
Tell me how much do I worth
Tell me if I'll ever get heard
And I try to put these into words
But no one seems to like my world
Tell me how much do I worth
Tell me if I'll ever get heard
And I try to put these into words
But no one seems to like my world
Tell me how much do I worth
...if I'll ever get heard