Jessie Reyez - BEFORE LOVE CAME TO KILL US Album Lyrics

I should've f*cked your friends
It would've been the best revenge for the fire that you started
I'm trying to heal, but it's a process
They told me I should cut my losses
But there's a stranger where my heart is

And I'm sick with feeling like I deserved better
And you're sick for everything you did to me, it was a setup (ha-ha, ha)
And I should Goodfella you, call me Karen, waking up to my Beretta
If I blow your brains out I, I can guarantee that you'll forget her (ha-ha, ha)
If I blow your brains out, I could kiss it better

Kiss me I'm the monster that you made, yeah you made me
Now I'm just like you so don't complain, yeah you made me
Do the things you like hoping you'd stay, okay
Kiss me I'm the monster that you made, you made me

Games, you don't want me unless I'm someone else's
You don't even know you're being selfish
You might see me only when I'm melted
Down to my tears only when I'm helpless
That's when you get off and you can't help it
And all your bullets they feel like velvet
And I let you do it, I let you do it
I loaded too much, I let you shoot it

And I'm with feeling like deserved better
And you dead me, left my heartbeat, left shit on a-cappella (ha-ha, ha)
And I should Goodfella you, call me Karen, waking up to my Beretta
And if I blow your brains out, I can guarantee that you'll forget her (ha-ha, ha)
If I blow your brains out, I could kiss it better

Kiss me I'm the monster that you made, yeah you made me
Now, I'm just like you so don't complain, yeah you made me
Do the things you like hoping you'd stay, okay
Kiss me, I'm the monster that you made, you made me

They say that she ain't signed yet but she stuck up
Now I'm busy, I guess I'm stuck up
Man what the f*ck's a day off?
I'ma buy my dad a mansion

Colombia in my blood, yeah
Loca getting it done, yeah
Over all my exes, tell my exes "I don't love ya"

Go getcha bitch right
She all on my dick like
I am the one that gotchu in love
'Cause I never miss, right

Go getcha bitch right
She all on my dick like
I am the one that gotchu in love
'Cause I never miss, right

Oh, now you don't recognize my face?
I heard that you got a lot to say
Chubbs on your jaw I don't hear a thing
But I ain't a killa, I'll let you breathe

Oh, now you don't recognize my face?
But I heard that you got a lot to say
I never listen, no I never listen
So I wouldn't hear your ass anyway (yuh)
I never listen, no I never listen
So I wouldn't hear your ass anyway
I never listen, no I never listen
So I wouldn't hear your ass anyway

Who are you
Anyway?
Who are you
Anyway?
Who are

(Okay, okay, okay, okay)
(Okay, okay, okay, okay)

If I'm sipping Jameson, I don't answer (no)
"F*ck love" is my anthem (yeah-yeah)
I feel like my city needs a female in a Phantom (it does)
Script boys they just actin'
And clown boys got me laughin' (ha-ha)
And I'm taking everything I came for
I ain't f*ckin' askin'

Go getcha bitch right
She all on my dick like
I am the one that gotchu in love
'Cause I never miss, right

Go getcha bitch right (yeah)
She all on my dick like (ayy)
All on my 'Gram like I am Milan, all he could dick like (What?)

Oh, now you don't recognize my face?
I heard that you got a lot to say
Chubbs on your jaw I don't hear a thing
But I ain't a killa I'll let you breathe

Oh, now you don't recognize my face?
But I heard that you got a lot to say
I never listen, no I never listen
So I wouldn't hear your as anyway (yeah)

I never listen, no I never listen
So I wouldn't hear your ass anyway
I never listen, no I never listen
So I wouldn't hear your ass anyway

Who are you
Anyway?
Who are you
Anyway?
Who are

Who are
Who are you, bitch? (okay, okay)
Who are (oigan, ¿esta huevon quien se cree hablandome asi?)
Who are (okay, okay)

I found you, cleared land
Put down my flag
This is mine from now on
When I see intruders
I load up my weapons
And fire my cannons
I wrote my name
Everywhere
For all eyes to see
You're beautiful, beautiful
I see them stare
But you belong to me

So please, no intruders
I kill all intruders
'Cause my love is ruthless
So please, no intruders

I wrote you a love song, a war song
I'll sing it when the ships come, yeah
I'll die for my state
Love in my veins
You are my kingdom
I wrote your name
Everywhere
For all eyes to see
You're beautiful, beautiful
I see them stare
But you belong to me

So please, no intruders
I kill all intruders
'Cause my love is ruthless
So please, no intruders

Please, no intruders
I kill all intruders
'Cause my love is ruthless
So please, no intruders

I got heads on the table
Heads on a stake
Of people that failed
And done make the mistake of thinking
I'd let them in
But this is my land
So don't you come in
This is my land

So please, no intruders
I'd kill all intruders
'Cause my love is ruthless
So please, no intruders

We fought until the sun rose
And I still ain't been to bed (bed, bed)
And while you got your eyes closed
The devil wakes up in my (head, head)
He told me that you hate me
And you blame me
And you said that you wish that you were dead
So I write a little note out
Suicidal love roulette

You make me wanna
Jump off the roof
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool
I'd rather a coffin
Hand made for two
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool
Just like a fool
Just like a fool

I walk up to the edge, yeah
And say a prayer before I let go (let go, let go)
I'll probably see you through the window
While I'm falling past the fifth floor (fifth floor, fifth floor)
Then you get there just in time
To save me and apologize
And maybe we can go back to bed
But you run past me instead
And hit the ground before I can

I had to watch you
Jump off the roof
Boy, I love you to death
Just like a fool
We'll need a coffin
Hand made for two
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool
Just like a fool

Maybe Buddha's got it right
We reincarnate every time
And I'll find you in another life
Maybe Buddha's got it right
We reincarnate every time
And I'll find you in another life

I don't really wanna fight (nah)
I just wanna spend the night (yeah)
But I don't wanna spend the night
Actin' out, "Love the way you lie"
But this shit just went awry
Hit me in the eye, bit me in the thigh, then begin to cry
I'm at the end of my wits
Let's end this, ma (it's over)
Then begin again tomorrow
Fresh start, let you spoil me
Pledge your loyalty, treat me like a king
Just to (royalty), f*ck me over royally
Boy, are we water mixed with oil
See another shouting match
'Bout to have it out
But no matter how, mad I get
I'm so mad about you
Forgot what I was even mad about ('bout)
I know we've had our challenges still (still)
I keep trying to salvage it you (you)
Wanna sabotage it, I'm down to the hill
But you think I'm f*cking around on you, chill (chill)
It never changes, I doubt if it will (will)
Cheat on me then say how does it feel? (feel)
I feel like blowing my f*cking head off
After I write you out of my will (will)
Bitch how could you? (huh?)
Almost had a child with you
Would've settled down with you
Now put you in the ground and bury myself with you
I don't get you, it's as if you're drowning
I stick my hand out, but you fool me
You're just trying to pull me down with you (down with you)
Thought it was you my world revolve around ('round)
I should aim a revolver round at you (at you)
180 proof, as I'm making my way to the roof (roof)
You're a traitor I say that we're through (through)
You hop in the elevator then you
Say the coffin they better make it for two (two)
'Cause if you jump I'm jumpin' with you (you)
And neither one of us have nothin' to lose
But each other we're just a couple of fools

'Cause you make me wanna
Jump off the roof
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool
We'll need a coffin
Hand made for two
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool

You make me wanna
Jump off the roof
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool
We'll need a coffin
Hand made for two
'Cause I love you to death
Just like a fool
Just like a fool
Just like a fool

Yeah, right here?

Fight just to f*ck, just to fight again
World War III justified in bed
Mess me up, now we ain't even friends
But the truth is I'm kind of tired of

Pretending that I was the guilty one
I wasn't feeling up no one but you, yeah
Lessons that I just can't seem to learn
I never thought you'd leave me two for two again

Lights out, strike out, I doubt
You'll ever find anyone
These bitches can't measure up, no
Lights out, strike out, I doubt
You'll ever find anyone
These bitches can't measure up
To my ankles
Levels? (Nah)
Levels? (Nah)
Ankles
These bitches don't make it to my ankles
Levels? (Nah)
Levels? (Nah)
Ankles

Strippers and liquor and cigarettes
Apologized but your Twitter said "No regrets"
I'd kill for a mute button in my head
You alright but I'm tired of

Pretending that I was the guilty one
I wasn't feeling up no one but you, yeah
Lessons that I just can't seem to learn
I never thought you'd leave me two for two again

Lights out, strike out, I doubt
You'll ever find anyone
These bitches can't measure up (yeah)
Lights out, strike out, I doubt
You'll ever find anyone
These bitches can't measure up
To my ankles (period)
Levels? (Nah)
Levels? (Nah)
Ankles (no they don't)
These bitches don't make it to my ankles (na-na-na)
Levels? (Nah)
Levels? (Nah)
Ankles

Two feet, you're shallow
Too real, I know too well
Backwoods, you high
Backwards, two feet
Shallow, too real
I know two steps
Backwoods, you high
Backwards boy
Okay

Hi, my name is Doesn't Matter
I like making bad decisions
Let's wake up like nothing happened
If we do it, say we didn't
If your friends ask if you hit it
You can tell 'em, I'll admit it
I wear that shit like a badge
'Cause I know that I got that kitty

You, you're in love with somebody else
Maybe I could offer some help
Get over them by getting under me
But you might OD if you get too much of me
Od if you get too much of me
Od if you get too much of me, yuh

Hi, my name is not important
I'm not from here, I'm imported
I drink liquor like it's water
Hope my liver can afford it
I've been lying here with you
I've been lying here, I'll be lying here
I'm under the covers
Like what happened here ain't nothing sacred
Shit that got me f*cked up is
I know that dude just saw me naked
Not interested in a broken heart
But who'd a thought it'd take me ages?
I ended up here 'cause my girls said
"Fake it 'til you make it"

You, you're in love with somebody else
Maybe I could offer some help
Get over them by getting under me

Hi, my name is not important
I'm not from here, I'm imported
I drink liquor like it's water
Hope my liver can afford it
Marvin type of healing
Got you all up in your feelings
Staring at the ceiling
Like, "I hope he still here in the morning"
You under the covers
Like what happened here ain't nothing sacred
I can tell you f*cked up over
Someone else you can't replace, and
You finally realized
That broken love just ain't worth saving
You tryna lick the wounds
But someone's not reciprocatin'

You, you're in love with somebody else
(You're in love with somebody else)
Well, maybe I could offer some help
(Maybe I could offer some help)
Get over them by getting under me
But you might OD if you get too much of me
Od if you get too much of me, uh
Get over him by getting under me
But you might OD if you get too much of me

'Cause you're in love with somebody else
Well, maybe I could offer some help
Get over them by getting under me
But you might OD if you get too much of me
Might OD if you get too much of me
Get over him by getting under me
But you might OD if you get too much of me

Od if you get too much of me
I'd OD if you get too much of me
Od if you get too much of me

Este amor me dejó sorda
Los consejos de mi madre no me llegan, no me llegan
Y yo no veo la hora
De largarme de este barrio desesperada de pena

No escapo tu memoria
Te apareces en mis canciones
Aunque no diga tu nombre
Aunque te reemplace con otro
Pues fuiste el que me trataste mal
Pero quieres excusas
Pues fuiste el que me trataste mal
Qué tal que yo te tratara igual

Te hace falta enamorarte de una perra
Te hace falta perder una guerra
Te hace falta encontrar una gemela
Que te quiebre el corazón
Que te deje en tu pena

Así de pronto aprendes
(Así de pronto aprendes)

No escapo tu memoria
Te apareces en mis canciones
Aunque no diga tu nombre
Aunque te reemplace con otro
Pues fuiste el que me trataste mal
Pero quieres excusas
Pues fuiste el que me trataste mal
Qué tal que yo te tratara igual

Te hace falta enamorarte de una perra
Te hace falta perder una guerra
Te hace falta encontrar una gemela
Que te quiebre el corazón
Que te deje en tu pena

Así de pronto aprendes

Your love left me deaf
To my mother's advice

When the red is almost black
(Cuando el rojo está casi negro)
And the rose is almost dead
(Y la rosa está casi muerta)
That is my favorite color
(Ese es mi color favorito)

How come I can't leave ya?
Talk to myself at night, wonderin' why
I feel like I am tied down to someone
Who's makin' me cry more than makin' me smile
Leave ya
Just make it through the night
Lyin' to myself, sayin' I'll be fine
I don't want you, I hate you, I think
But I don't wanna be alone either

You're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
I wanna make love, you wanna burn a bridge
So I wish I was a bad guy
So we could just be fightin' on the same side
Yeah, you're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
So I wish I was a bad guy
Just to be with you
Just to be with you

How come I won't believe ya?
You said all your goodbyes
You said that you would be out my life
If I could just let you go, let you be on your own
But, love, I need ya
You used to be paradise
You used to be where I would go to hide
From people who treat me the way that you treated me
I don't believe ya

You're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
I wanna make love, you wanna burn a bridge
So I wish I was a bad guy
So we could just be fightin' on the same side
Yeah, you're such an asshole, but I see a prince
And I'm a good girl, but you see a bitch
So I wish I was a bad guy
Just to be with you

Sorry I'm not your ex
I'm sorry I'm not who you thought you'd get
I'm sorry that I'm lackin' self respect
Should've left when you started hoppin' beds
I'm sorry, made this world in my head
I'm sorry I don't wanna quit this yet
I'm sorry, I swear that I tried my best
I'm sorry, can you be sorry instead?

Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you
Just to be with you

Just to be with you
Just to be with you

I could, mm, yeah

I could drive a Benz
But I'm still in my old ass Honda
Cocky's in a coma
But I got my commas
It be skinny dudes
Packin' those anacondas
I might be petite
But I'm a f*ckin' monster

Everything I do hits the roof
My city's on the moon
F*ck a toque, no cap, I'm outtie
Everything I fear's on a noose
I ain't got nothing to lose
Two-two's, I'm outtie

Everything I do hits the roof
My city's on the moon
F*ck a toque, no cap, I'm outtie
Everything I fear's on a noose
I ain't got nothing to lose
Two-two's, I'm outtie

Some girls say you lucky
I don't want your man
But the truth is
Boy you lucky I don't want your plan
Because Blueprint, and Blonded, good kid m.A.A.d city
Got love for Amy and Fugees, and Lauryn
But no f*ckin' pinche cabron, let's get it

Seein' every color like tie-dye is
Never really ever had a high like this
Tryna keep my head up and avoid minus
No negative I'm just tryin' to mind my biz
Titties still small, nails not done
Hair not done and my teeth ain't fixed
But your man, your mom, your sis
Your favorite artist, all of them love my shit
Why? (I'm different, you're different, we're different
We are different, are you listenin'?)

Everything I do hits the roof
My city's on the moon
F*ck a toque, no cap, I'm outtie
Everything I fear's on a noose
I ain't got nothing to lose
Two-two's, I'm outtie

Everything I do hits the roof
My city's on the moon
F*ck a toque, no cap, I'm outtie
Everything I fear's on a noose
I ain't got nothing to lose
Two-two's, I'm outtie

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope

Come here hot boy (hot boy)
Tell me do you need a teacher?
I know I got what you need, yeah
And I know I need mine
I make big noise (big noise)
I'm a different kind of creature
I'm a different kind of breed, yeah
And I know what you like, yeah

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
That shit dope
That shit dope
Come here hot boy (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
That shit dope, that shit dope
Come here hot boy (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
That shit dope, that shit dope

He said, "I could eat all of y'all"
He said, "I could feed all of y'all"
He said that he's a carnivore
So, she's on her feet and he's on the floor
Gasolina, they need a fill-up
I-I-I-I need my fill-up
El me ve y se desespera
Mi salvia da borachera

Come here hot boy (hot boy)
Tell me do you need a teacher?
I know I got what you need, yeah
And I know I need mine
I make big noise (big noise)
I'm a different kind of creature
I'm a different kind of breed, yeah
And I know what you like, yeah

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
That shit dope
That shit dope
Come here hot boy (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
That shit dope, that shit dope
Come here hot boy (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
That shit dope, that shit dope

Life is short, so I hope you're long
Life is short, so we hopping on
It's only bad if you get caught
So catch me singing, oh my God
Oh my God, la, la, la
Catch me singing, oh my God
Pop that, pop that, pull that trigger
Backshots get you drunk like liquor

Come here hot boy (hot boy)
Tell me do you need a teacher?
I know I got what you need, yeah
And I know I need mine
I make big noise (big noise)
I'm a different kind of creature
I'm a different kind of breed, yeah
And I know what you like, yeah

Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah, that shit dope
That shit dope
That shit dope
Come here hot boy (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
That shit dope, that shit dope
Come here hot boy (ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)
That shit dope, that shit dope

Okay put the drink down
Yeah, yeah, put the drink down

Hmm
Love you in the worst way
You knock me down like a heavyweight, mm-mm
We fell in love, got a KO, oh no
Too damn young, so we broke up, no go
So much for a wedding date, ha

I know nobody gets outta love alive
We either break up when we're young
Or we say goodbye when we die
For a moment at least I know
You were mine and it was beautiful
But winter comes and roses don't survive

It's gettin' late
And I should go

But I wanna hold ya
Like it's June in the west end
Back when you were my best friend
Before love came to kill us
We're not supposed to
But I can't learn my lesson
I miss when you were my best friend
Before love came to kill us

So under the mask of the moon
Could we dance in the past?
Before love
Before love came to kill us

Life's good and I'm gettin' paid, mm
But I think about you everyday, oh no (still)
When I miss you I medicate (pour up drink, drink)
Tears come out like a renegade, ah-ah

'Cause nobody gets outta love alive
We either break up when we're young
Or we say goodbye when we die
For a moment at least I know
You were mine and it was beautiful
But winter comes and roses don't survive

It's gettin' late
And I should go

But I wanna hold ya
Like it's June in the west end
Back when you were my best friend
Before love came to kill us
We're not supposed to
But I can't learn my lesson
I miss when you were my best friend (yes, I do)
Before love came to kill us

So under the mask of the moon
Could we dance in the past?
Before love
Before love

Under the mask of the moon
Could we dance in the past?
Before love, mm
Before love
Before love came to kill us

We're only humans floating on a rock
But I think that you are made of stardust
Unconditional, you put up with so much
I can never repay the way you love
Back to the sky, we all have to fly back home, back home
The sweetest goodbyes are never with smiles at all

But when our lives are running out
And your heartbeat has taken the draw
Could you try to look around?
I'll be there to pull you back up
I'll be around you
I'm nothing without you
I won't leave you alone
'Cause when the stars are falling down
There's love in the dark
(I'll be there)
(I'll be there)
There's love in the dark
(I'll be there)
(I'll be there)

I'd do anything to relive our memories
And listen to your songs play in my head
'Cause I hate the silence, it's the only thing I get
I wish I could hear your voice once again
And your heartbeat, all of the small things, oh, oh
The sweetest goodbyes are never with smiles at all

But when our lives are running out
And your heartbeat has taken the draw
Could you try to look around?
I'll be there to pull you back up
I'll be around you
I'm nothing without you
And I can't leave you alone
And when the stars are falling down
There's love in the dark
(I'll be there)
(I'll be there)

I thank God for everything
That you showed me, that you showed me, yeah
And I thank God for everything
That you showed me, that you showed me

But when our lives are running out
And your heartbeat has taken the draw
Could you try to look around?
I'll be there to pull you back up
I'll be around you
I'm nothing without you
And I can't leave you alone
And when the stars are falling down
There's love in the dark

I wish five years ago
Had an area code
So I could get you on the phone
The old you I'm lookin' for
My favorite memory
When you called me your majesty
And we let this whole castle fall down
Oh, what a tragedy

Do I still live in your head?
Do you still live with regrets?
'Cause I do, I do
Do you got something on your chest?
Do you wish we weren't finished yet?
'Cause I do, I do

Come bring me all your sins
I'll forgive all of them
If you put a band-aide on the scars
I'm no good at hidin' them
Would you give me your heart again
Or at least let me borrow it?
If I could just see you we don't even have to talk
I'll take an argument

Do I still live in your head?
Do you still live with regrets?
'Cause I do, I do
Do you got something on your chest?
Do you wish we weren't finished yet?
'Cause I do, I do

All I want
All I want is a familiar face
'Cause I'd much rather
Rather hurt from familiar pain

Am I still livin' in your head?
Do you still live with regrets?
I do, I do
Do you got something on your chest?
Don't you wish we weren't finished yet?
'Cause I do, I do

I do (yeah)
I do (yeah)
I do (yeah)
I do (yeah)
I do

I do (I do)
I do (I do)
I do (I do)
I do (I do)
I do
I do
I do
I do
I do
I do
I do
I do
I do
I do

These days I let all my flowers die
I like my flowers dead in a vase, over some rocks
Because there's more control that way

Figures
I gave you ride or die and you gave me games, love
Figures
I know I'm crying 'cause you just won't change, love
Figures
I gave it all and you gave me shit, love
Figures
I wish I could do exactly what you did

I wish I could hurt you back
Love, what would you do if you couldn't get me back?
You're the one who's gonna lose
Something so special, something so real
Tell me, boy, how in the f*ck would you feel
If you couldn't get me back?
That's what I wish that I could do
To you, you, hoo, hoo (yeah)
To you, you, hoo, hoo (yeah)

Figures
I'm the bad guy 'cause I can't learn to trust, love
Figures
You say sorry once and you think it's enough
I got a lineup of girls and a lineup of guys
Begging for me just to give 'em a try
Figures
I'm willing to stay
'Cause I'm sick for your love

I wish I could hurt you back
Love, what would you do if you couldn't get me back?
You're the one who's gonna lose
Something so special, something so real
Tell me, boy, how in the f*ck would you feel
If you couldn't get me back?
That's what I wish that I could do
To you, you, hoo, hoo (yeah)
To you, you, hoo, hoo (yeah)

Figures