Jkellz - Big Blue Lyrics

All these dark thoughts keep me grounded, yet in this big blue I am drowning
Malice and pain I'm surrounded, cause in this big blue I am drowning

I've been drowning in this big blue for way too long now and it's way too strong now
To keep it all inside this carcass of mine and let it rot
Carving out my brain to get peace of mind that's just a thought
Now what you thought, I've been ghost for bout a year and a half
To master the craft, reflect on the past, maybe go laugh and such
But all they ever wanna do is ask about ASK
Clocking my stash now really my nigga I ain't laughing much
Cause ain't too much to joke about, the joke is on
If you think I'm gonna chew you out when the fact of the matter is
I'm bashing myself about it, can't laugh at myself about it
Too used to being the fool, make an ass of myself about it
Now I question myself about it still is it really worth it
Emotions screwing you like a drill packed inside of you like some pills I can't manage to keep Them sealed everything overflowing I'm wishing time would start standing still
Still things change in a lil bit, I hope things change in a lil bit
I can't handle doing this but who am I to stop you from tryna live

All these dark thoughts keep me grounded, yet in this big blue I am drowning
Malice and pain I'm surrounded, cause in this big blue I am drowning

I've been trying my hardest not to succumb to the darkness
But it's been overwhelming not for the art but the artist just think about it
When everything's going swell but in the blink of the eye everything goes to hell
My head will swell like who could tell this man's suffering has been out of control
When children they start shuffling or a feen hitting the streets dropped to they knees
Like my nigga I need them drugs again
Don't drown don't, no, you've got too much to do
Don't drown don't, no, you've got too much lose
Stay afloat, stay afloat, you can't lose your soul
Stay afloat, stay afloat, it's all down to you

All these dark thoughts keep me grounded, yet in this big blue I am drowning
Malice and pain I'm surrounded, cause in this big blue I am drowning