Joey - The Conversation Lyrics

Only conversate with the man in my head
Always telling me that I'm better off dead
Please just go away he fills me with regret
And feelings fade but there in my blood like red at the end of the day
Stuck we words we never said
Words we never said
Shit I'm down and out losing my mind
And I am not proud of my past selling loud
Doing things I wasn't allowed I need a new brain
Before I start wylin' out like Nick cannon
I can't f*cking stand it in my head it's way to active
I can't take the static am I too demanding
Been through too much damage
What's love I can't f*cking have it
I guess it ain't that tragic
At least I admit it
I finally found an outlet and a passion
Needed purpose finally found it
Started swimming stopped the drowning
Tell me why my head keeps pounding
Sounding like some voices in it kinda getting crowded
Astounded that they kicked me out it
I'm controlled by another entity
Telling me I could never be a real mc
But I'm filled with so much energy it keeps me on my feet cuz of ADHD
Constantly following my dream
Working harder than a football team
Only conversate with the man in my head
Always telling me that I'm better off dead
Please just go away he fills me with regret
Feelings fade but there in my blood like red
At the end of the day stuck with words we never said
Words we never said
When did my life become a king novel no Martin Luther
Just death with a shovel
I feel like a loser waiting to be put under
Smile just to cover I wish Mike used a rubber
Shit that's my dad, dad I'm troubled
Did you know when I was younger
I would have nothing but struggle
Always running from hunger
Never become a lover
Coming from nothing and still just a bummer
Wanna be something but too scared to become a
Failure so I do not talk much
Don't try new things
I don't blame ya I just wanna walk tough and maybe sing
But I'm scared to be made fun of so I drink
Think about how I let you down
Guess I never was good enough to stick around
So after I got kicked out
Your place never felt like a house
So when I'm over kinda quiet like a mouse
Cuz I'm trapped by the cheese I need but it's never in my mouth
Or my wallet so I'm never talking
Guess my head flew south
When I'm all alone I would always shout
But with people around
I can't make a sound naw
I can't even make a sound
Only conversate with the man in my head
Always telling me that I'm better off dead
Please just go away he fills me with regret
Feelings fade but there in my blood like red
At the end of the day stuck with words we never said
Words we never said