Jolie Amelie - I understand Lyrics

I used to talk about you a lot
In front of my families ears
But at a time I stopped
Didn't wanna shed more tears
Didn't want them to ask about you
Just wanted to close this door
I hate to admit
But now I understand why people cheat
When they miss something in their relationship
A void so big, they can't defeat
Even without binding ties
We confessed our love, a connection so rare
I thought that still means something
It felt so special for us to share
When I kiss these guys
I feel I'm cheating on you
It feels so wrong, deep within my soul
But it felt like it's the only way
That I can go away from you
I hate to admit
But now I understand why people cheat
When they miss something in their relationship
A void so big, they can't defeat
If there would be no other guy
Close to me
I think I would never have
Brought myself to leave you
I would keep fighting
The battle that's lost since the start
Surrendering myself in the web of lies
That you created
Painting her as the past
No farewell whispered, no love torn apart
Disconnected in distance
I told you I'm a fighter, but with a lonely heart
Forgotten and unseen
Yet, my love for you stays strong
I would not find the strength to end it
Wish that you'd bid farewell
Admit you're wrong
I hate to admit
But now I understand why people cheat
When they miss something in their relationship
A void so big, they can't defeat
After half a year longing for near
In the ache of distance, I shed my last tear
Realizing you held a love all along
I begin to feel withdrawn
I step away, acknowledging what couldn't be
Made a closure, the right decision
For you and me
Wishing you the best
On your way with your girl
May your dreams come true
As I say Goodbye to you
I hate to admit
But now I understand why people cheat
When they miss something in their relationship
A void so big, they can't defeat
I went through this too
With you, so
I understand you