Joseph Arthur - Ashes everywhere Lyrics

I'll be silent in my solitude
Can't find my smile or my gratitude
I'm afraid of what I might do
'Cause there's no me
If there's no me and you
I wish that i could open up your eyes
To feel the sun that burned in your mind

I can't deal with what you have done
Reincarnate i wonder who i might become
With the potential of a loaded gun
I could be as fresh as hard bubble gum
I don't have nothing, now I want me some
First some of you, then some of everyone

Oh darling since you've been away from me
I know how the pins feel in the bowling alley
They say love is something you feel but never see
When I see you I firmly disagree
I'm just trying to be all that I can be
Without destroying you
Or joining the army

Your ashes must be blowing everywhere
'Cause i could still feel you and you're nowhere near
And though you didn't say so i can tell that you still care
We could've had it all but then nothing is fair
I still think about washing your hair
I wish i could've washed away all of your despair