I've been living in oblivion
I've been wishing on stars that aren't even there anymore
In a hotel room, way out east
Leaving memories incomplete
I don't wanna write about you anymore
If I stay quiet, I will regret it, regret it, regret it
But I'm so bad at this shit
Staring at the ceiling again
Thinking how I told my friends about you
They sounded happier than I did
Because in my head
I know it's only a matter of time
Before I leave this behind
Fairytales that want nothing to do with me
Funny how my brain works
Telling me you were made for me
I'm just gonna get hurt
I rush too fast now
I waited too long
I can't hold back now
I can't hold back now
I've been living in oblivion
I've been staring right at the sun for answers
Answers, I know
It was your birthday, I ignored it
Don't wanna come off too strong
But I'm going about it all wrong
I need some answers, answers
I don't wanna grow up
Just to face the monster
I don't wanna come back down
I thought I had it all figured out, but here you are pulling me back
I thought I had it all figured out, so why the hell am I holding back?