Joshua Hughes - four leaf clover Lyrics

Used to be the man of your dreams
Now I'm the nightmare
Wanted to be on your good side
Now I know I'm not there
Hoping you come back
And see that I'm not bad
I made a lot of mistakes
I wish I never had
Can't take back the past
But trust me I would've
I ask why I wasn't better
"I don't know, I should've"

I look back to the past
And see where it ended
Jealousy and anger
None of it intended
Didn't think clear
And now its all over
My wish is you
With a four leaf clover

I feel sick to my stomach
When you aren't here
Look at my phone and see "delivered"
Such a big fear
Ghosted me for hours
And I have the question why
I mess up everyday
I don't know what I did that night
Crying in my bed
Hoping for an answer
Missing all the days
Where I used to romance her

I look back to the past
And see where it ended
Mistakes and being clingy
None of it intended
Didn't think clear
And now its all over
My wish is you
With a four leaf clover

I wish I could reach out to hold you
Like the old days I was used to
Pain surrounds me like an army
Thoughts arise of surrendering
I plan to stay and try again
Now I'm only asking "when?"
Oh god please give me a sign
If this will ever be fine
I'm relying on a fading dream
Wishing we could be a team
Again (Oh)

I look back to the past
And see where it ended
Jealousy and anger
None of it intended
Didn't think clear
And now its all over
My wish is you
With a four leaf clover
I look back to the past
And see where it ended
Mistakes and being clingy
None of it intended
Didn't think clear
And now its all over
My wish is you
With a four leaf clover

I think it's all over
Hoping for a four leaf clover