(Haunting dreams)
(Disturb my sleep)
(Needing peace)
(I run from Thee)
Oh God
My God
I need Your love
Oh God
My God
I need freedom
But i'm still running away
You tell me that i'm looking sick in the face and i need to get better whatever it takes
When i go undercover looking for escape
Look under my covers i'll tell you about
All the pain that i went through all over the place
Of the waves that continued to batter my brain
Of the stain from the sin that i did everyday
Of the ways that i failed to remember His grace
Is this what i'm here for?
To hurt on the inside?
Someday i'll ignore
All of the white lies
"You're gonna die"
No i'm not, i am fine
I have my Savior to keep me alive
I live in fear help me change how i think
I know that i'm here You give everything
I don't need to be scared because God, You're my King
God show me a piece of Your kingdom and then i'll believe
Another lie, why's that?
I always remember the past
The times that i felt all alone as i ran
From the people that guarded my back
Is it funny?
It's sad
I've lost all the friends that i had
And i know it's my own fault but i need a restart
A way to destroy all the bad
Get right with my King, my Father and friend
He says He won't leave but i feel like He did
I can't trust anymore cuz i ran from myself
And now i'm in the dark and i'm looking for help
And God is right there but i don't look to His face
Because i love the dark and i don't want His grace
I want to make it alone all by myself
But i know that i can't so i cry for help
And He answers
That's the sad part
Because i knew that He would
It's because He has promised He'll love us Forever and that He doesn't desert
But here is the issue i do not deserve
His love or forgiveness i already burned
All belief that i had that He would be there
When everything faded and nobody cared
So how can i make it right with God
I broke His trust and ran from His love
But here i am
Still alive and loved
So how can i
Continue to run