[ Featuring Ava Max ]
So, I let the winds pile up
And your words fall down (words fall down) (ooh-ooh)
Said you didn't want me then
I don't need you now
And I really wanna leave but I'm too far (far), and I'm too lost
Wanna let go, but it's too hard (too hard), want a new start
Gotta look inside me, but I'm too scarred
Never knew the pain could be this sad
I don't wanna die young, so I live fast
Never knew a heartbreak could be this bad (uh)
I'm afraid to be in love, then I know why (yeah)
I can never trust what I don't buy (uh)
When I feel like givin' up, then I don't try (yeah)
Kinda feel like takin' drugs, so I don't cry (uh)
Got me feelin' like a dove when it don't fly (don't fly)
But I get depressed when you just leave (uh)
I can never get rest 'til you close by (yeah)
I don't feel at my best when it's just me (uh)
Every time it get bad, then it get worse
When it get worse, then you hit first (uh)
Got me livin' on the edge and I'm just cursed (yeah)
Sick of tryna build a bridge just to get burned (uh)
Got me all in my head, but I'm just hurt
Wanna run, but we just hide (yeah)
We don't wanna hear the truth so we just lie
But I only look at you like you're just mine (uh)
Said I only look at you like you're just mine (you're just mine)
But we gotta heal, and my head f*cked up, don't know how to feel
When you tell me you in love with somebody else (man)
How you tell me you in love with somebody else? (That's crazy)
But you know that I need you (uh)
Now I gotta build a life with a stranger
We both know that I wanted it to be you
Goddamn
So, I let the winds pile up
And your words fall down (words fall down) (yeah, ooh-ooh)
Said you didn't want me then (ooh)
I don't need you now (ooh, Joyner, Joyner)
We don't have to love forever
I thought that you would love me better
Why would you go tear me up just to take me down? (Ooh-ooh)
Where the f*ck do I go when I'm too lost (too lost), when I'm too far?
Wanna let it go, but it's too hard (too hard), and it's too dark
Keep tellin' your side, but it's two parts
Hope you're sayin' things that you don't mean (yeah)
I feel like I'm sleep, but I don't dream
Just another nightmare, but I don't scream (yeah)
Every time it get rough, then we break up
Every time that we f*ck, then we make up (uh)
Every time we get drunk, then it's dangerous (yeah)
Sick and tired of givin' up, but you gave us (uh)
I don't wanna give it up, but you made us (uh)
Then I get depressed when you just leave (yeah)
I can never get rest when I'm laid up
I don't feel at my best when it's just me (yeah)
You can see my heart bleed when you watch it (uh)
I can feel your heart leave in the process (uh)
And you only want leave when it's options (yeah)
But you only want me when it's toxic (yeah)
How you only want me when it's toxic? (Uh)
Type of shit can get dangerous (uh)
Had to deal with my pain in phases
I done felt so much pain, that I'm painless (yeah)
And I know it's too late to save us, but we gotta heal (yeah)
And my head f*cked up, don't know how to feel
When you tell me you in love with somebody else
How you tell me you in love with somebody else (yeah)
When you know that I need you?
Now I gotta build a life with a stranger (uh)
We both know that I wanted it to be you (damn)
So, I let the winds pile up
And your words fall down (words fall down) (oh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh)
Said you didn't want me then
I don't need you now (don't need you now)
We don't have to love forever
I thought that you would love me better
Why would you go tear me up just to take me down? (Take me down, yeah)
So, I let the winds pile up
And your words fall down (words fall down) (ooh-ooh, uh)
Said you didn't want me then
I don't need you now (don't need you now)
We don't have to love forever (uh)
Just hoped that you would love me so much better
Why would you go tear me up just to take me down?
