I was at my rock bottom when the angels came
No capes
Just a prayer on rainy day
On my knees
Another drunk day i gave away
I Know I need a savior
But this vodka is the easy way
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I was laying in my own stench
Sleeping under da stars
I ain't own ish
Homeless
Hated living in my own skin
How'd I get from valuing life
To living worthless
Ha
I can't blame it on the playing field
Cause I was as smart as a whip
Educated
Park parlayed to laziness
The harder it gets
Every time I had to show up
The harder I quit
Truth is
I was raised by addicts
Trained to cover up heart pains
Habits had a way ta get me outta head
The hard things
Them Dead feelings turn ta baggage Departing
My self esteem was on E
Cause moms had her on probs-
She chose the rocks over me
And There's My first false belief
I am not worthy of love
From the one who birthed me
Put me on this earth all I need is a hug
But my young mind believed all she needed was drugs
I proceed with a shrug
Started off with weed
To the beans
I felt free with a buzz
This is normal
Nothing evil
Getting deep in the mud
Fast forward twenty years
Oh the fiend of I've become
I Don't know who I am
Or who i'm posed to be
Manipulating and stealing from everybody close to me
Self sabotaging and burning bridges explosively
That disappointed little boy is the ghost of me
I no longer do anything of my own might
The only place I find power's in a pint
Stumbling through the dark
I ain't ready ta see the light
Trying to receive healing
By being high as kite
Deaths the theme of my plight
Believe me I seen it twice
I'm cuffed to my demons
They leading me to the knife
I'm holding it to my wrist
Hopeless ready to slice
I'm done living in fear
For sure I'm ready tonight
I'm all outta booze
My time is done in this life
I fall to my knees
And hear the voice of Christ
He said
Give me your broken heart
And all of its dark pieces
Your fear and anger
I'll teach you how to release it
Release it
Release it
Release it
That's how I survived
Now I rise like the phoenix
Put my pride to the side
And my eyes on Jesus
The Kairos is coming