Martyr II (feat. Nyx) Video (MV)

Running from December
I can't face the winter
The cold won't numb the heartache
Still I soldier another day
I've been sick of being paranoid ever since a young age
Living like computer games looking for an update
Thought I'd buy my mom a car and move her out someday
And now I think about it Crisp Linen's such a dumb name
I hope I get enough hate
To be kinda famous one day
I kinda felt that way but nowadays I got enough faith
To move a mountain help me out 'cause this shit is in the way
Anxiety, depression feel like I'mma suffocate
'Cause I dont think everyone that
Says that they know me have taken a moment to really get every fact
And happy ain't calling me back
Happy ain't a person or a feeling or a moment it's a place you're at
And where the f*ck am I right now?
In the middle of the desert least I'm high right now
I've been tryna tell the Lord don't let me die right now
'Cause I'mma take those angel wings and I'mma fly right down
F*ck that I'm out
In the reality shroud
Meet my demons they battle me fill my head like a cavity
Promise me I'll be happy with thoughts of leaving the crowd
If my feet fail me now guaranteed I'm still leaving the ground
Hope I'm evening out
Every evil thing I've done that even eats at me now
She still believes in me now
So taking music out of me's like taking beef out a cow, word
And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars
Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered
It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed
I'm looking back while I am running from December
And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars
Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered
It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed
I'm looking back while I am running from December
I'm perpendicular perfectly purposed purple herb
I've mastered tincture
Bourbon just serves to sooth the nerves
And if we're hangings off the words
I'd rather shoot the verbs
Guess we're killing all this time
Before it kills us first
I found purpose searching for something to do for her
Imagine how I feel when I just end up losing her
'Cause it was really way too soon for her
Guess the least that I could do is write something that's true for her
You put the edge on my weapons
You are the strength of my essence
You are my everything blessing
I know it's better in heaven
But I feel like I've just been cheated out my life goals
'Cause the times I wronged you I was only tryna right those
Last thing she said to me was on an iPhone
Drive safe and now I face a long ride home
More love, more strength, more life
I love you mom I know it's alright
And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars
Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered
It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed
I'm looking back while I am running from December
And with this bow I'm an archer, heavy armor made of stars
Every martyr will be missed but mine remembered
It's harder not to be bothered with every day we have passed
I'm looking back while I am running from December
Running from December
I can't face the winter
The cold won't numb the heartache
Still I soldier another day