Juan The Dream Maker - Close To Midnight Lyrics

It close to midnight, but I can't sleep, I'm out of focus
The kind of nights where the restless is coping
The smell of euphoria is away from different island
The salt water is all I see yet the purpose is beyond finding
I mean I've survived too many emotional damages
So I'm too desensitized to go on any rampages
Like How the f*ck I have live this long, inferno
Yet the hedgehog's dilemma is growing, yet roasting too slow
Inferiority complex adding to the flames, infinite
Inable to f*cking express, hell I'm living it
My mind is so f*cked by everything I touched
Gasping for some light, but there no god I trust
The only thing will kill me is my own pride
I knew from the start, that will be my ride
But I can't leave yet, I still have unresolve issues
Guess I'll stick to the this just to Leave you

Distant lullabies that take me far away
I'm not seeking any other place to stay
Distant lullabies that take me far away
I'm not seeking any other place to stay

Close to midnight, I wondering why I'm breathing
I just want to sleep forever, drinking and leaving
Everything I have to someone else take my place
I'm not the savior that I expected myself I'm out the race
I can't cope with the term love, I don't have love family
Cuz I don't love them cuz I isolated myself from
Them
This is my confession to everyone for that I lost my insanity
Why lies, the only thing I can do is put to the end
Of the adventure of a lost artist
Abstract the art, and cause to lost
And fall of from the apple tree and rot till there no more
I'm so broken that I'm too irredeemable
To jump back, but I still jump back cuz I
Love rap too much. And it all that
But I can't leave till my goals are achieved and filled
Till then I'll live for the future. To kill or to be killed

Distant lullabies that take me far away
I'm not seeking any other place to stay
Distant lullabies that take me far away
I'm not seeking any other place to stay

I'm so sorry
Please forgive me
Just forgive me
For what have I done to you guys

Just forgive me
Just forgive me
If I were to sacrifice my music career for love
I would've done it in a instant

But
This also means I have to
Forfeit the quest, you know
To find peace

But, to be honest, I rather have true love
I can start from there
Start from the build up
Because

I have someone to amend
Which is you, which is you, which is you, which is you, which is