Juice Tha Truth - My Pain (feat. Michael Travoy) Lyrics

I Been getting kicked out
Since I was teenage
Tried keep my head up
Issa nother day
Same old book just
Flip another page
Whole family thinks that imma disgrace
Black sheep guess it always been this way
If I could feel anything
It wouldn't be a thing
Ion wanna feel love
Ion wanna feel hate
Ion wanna feel hurt
Ion wanna feel pain

Drinking and driving and
Swerving through lanes
Hoping that I crash
And it only kills me
I've always been done
So f*cking filthy
I don't even pray
Cuz God let me down
Some many times
In so many ways
I done lost it all
So I cannot feel the same
I wanna end it all with a bullet in the brain
I'm losing my mind
So i gotta got the brakes
I'm going insane don't know what to think
Drop another tear after
Each and every blink
The drugs stop working
How the f*ck i numb the pain
People think I'm crazy
Dark thoughts in the way
Everyone gon hate
Then smile in ya face
When you up
Everybody be around for the plate
When I'm down and out
They existence get erased
Thats the typa shit
Make a nigga wanna catch a case
Who really around yeah
It's getting hard to tell
Why turn to friends
When nobody wanna help
Why turn to god
When I'm prolly goina hell
Why be scared to end it
When I only ever fail
If cops lock me up
Who the f*ck gon pay my bail
I tried to catch the wave
But the ship already sailed
Sailed sailed sailed sailed
Shit been hard but now it's overkill
Praying that it stops
When I swallow the pill
I think I'd be depressed
Even if I had a mill
Cocaine numb
Is the only thing I feel
And the cold dead end
Of the barrel on the steel
God abandoned me
So the devil made a deal
Take my soul
And take my heart
And turn em into ice
And let me restart
F*ck that
I just rather depart
From this life man
I wanna go rest in peace
I tried to be a goat
In a land full of sheep
This shit getting real
Like a war over seas
I tried to stay strong
But my mind on deplete
I tried to get a girl
But all she did was cheat
Every other night in
A different nigga sheet
Man this shit is getting scary
Like this shit is Halloween
Sorry if im coming off kinda mean
Let calm down yeah let me decline
All my life
All I did was waste time
I really wish that
I could rewind
Stuck inside my head
I'm imprisoned by my mind
F*ck it imma run
I don't wanna do the time
I truly wanna live
But I really wanna die
How you say you with me
But you always switching sides
I try to speak the truth
In a room full of lies
I wanna disappear
Wish I could up n fly
I would leave right now
Wouldn't even say goodbye
Caught up in a knot
Now it's time to cut the tie
Make another noose
Watch the pain leave my eyes
As my body drop down
And my veins run dry
Let my body rot
Another feast for the flies
I'm just praying to my homies
Watching down from the sky

I Been getting kicked out
Since I was teenage
Tried keep my head up
Issa nother day
Same old book just
Flip another page
Whole family thinks imma disgrace
Black sheep guess it always been this way
If I could feel anything
It wouldn't be a thing
Ion wanna feel love
Ion wanna feel hate
Ion wanna feel hurt
Ion wanna feel pain