Many a night I slaved over the thought
Of gatekeeping the purity solace tends to afford
Most breakups are hard to figure
While others are set on course
I never seen in succession
A love blossom and pour
Out every root, every stem
My family tree's adorned
With withering fruits of labor
My crowns made out of thorns
Needs reveling deeper
Jealousies on the cross
I crucified every facet of character, now I mourn, aye
Born in the image of fatal marriage
I'm hoping to be different
I keep on failing to please
I can't handle this weather
I know I'm human and all but is there a prayer I could leverage?
Just for once in your favor
This is the talk I've been dreading
What do I even deserve?
My hearts taking a licking
Please don't take her from me
I'm here begging forgiveness
Could you give me the strength?
This time I'll be more deliberate
Maybe I'm immature
Or maybe it's years of division
Riptides leaving me capsized
Floored under water like I'm baptized
My catastrophic fantasizing
Is advising on more mistakes to make
I thought I bottled it well
But guilt finds its way to escape
Even when surviving hell
Cause even when I feel a glimpse of heaven breathing down my neck
I tend to snuff it out
Don't get too close to what you fear the most be here to loathe
These cryptic thoughts don't do me favors
Where were they composed?
Certainly, in keys of life we tend to hear more songs
Of overcoming natures, we developed, so I'm writing on
Till something more poetic lives prophetic in my morning tone
Can't pass on defective genetics, no we can't credit those
Dose clarity, I'm casualty prone
It's gravity, I'll naturally come crashing is all
See my mortality won't be sequestered
Or guided by the feckless
I've soldiered through the desserts
It's time to bring it home
(I can't stand the rain without you)
(Baby I won't)
(I can't stand to see you with someone else)