July Quin - RUN Lyrics

Am I the ghost of what I was
Can't even feel the love
Run, run, run, run, run
And don't come back till you learn something
Clean up the mess that my chest made my heart spilling
What's god given is god tested so god bless ya
I wish I could shake it off like etch a sketch and
I wish I was fresh to death and after resurrection
I'm praying on the grounds floor looking for
A face to face with god
I'm on them bath salts
This a crash course on how to crash and get your cast away
To sign off like sunshine when the sky's dark
Darling I've been falling since autumn first stripped bare
Got skinny when you dipped and I ain't even strip there
Was either full of myself or full of us
And I couldn't digest another lost
My ego deflated
Now it's just me and these voices I stay with
I laid with
This one girl who told me it's dangerous
To think its
More than a bed, I'm just someone you met, I guess
This someone I sex ain't something I get
Unrequited always divided
Invited something I wasn't ready for in and now it's multiplying
This responsibility's giant
And I'm too defiant to try and figure out what's the science of it
Heart is like go my mind is like f*ck it
That's my approach my fear is just sucking
And being someone you feel that you stuck with
That's why most the times I'm the one who seems always reluctant
Now, I know that isn't what you prayed i do but, but
I feel lines like canines do and, and
They give me pounds like weight and I'm like wait
These the same motherf*ckers who take me for joke
And I'm like take me all or don't
Cause I don't need nobody that don't love me in my home, I know
I'm no Dizzy SenZe, I'm no SiD
I'm just Quin with a little bit of whit to get busy with
But they still think I'm on that Drizzy shit
All because I got great penmanship
I'm on a quest like midnight marauders
In hope to find a better morning, mourning