Junie - The Perfect Burden Lyrics

So what if you're a liar?
You still feel like home.
I suppose that I could heal the wounds
But then I don't think I'd know where to go.
I laid there crying in his bed
He slept through all the noise
And when the knife went in my back,
I thought "this feels so familiar."
I hope he hurts me forever
And I hope it's just like that.
Once I walk out that door
I can never come back home.
So I'll be the perfect burden,
'Cause I don't think I can do this on my own.
And it's not that I'm afraid,
Or incapable of change,
I just love you and I miss you,
And I'm tired of pretending that I don't.
F*ck the healing
F*ck the "right thing"
I just wanna stay right here.
I love the way that you don't love me.
I feel safer with the wanderers,
'Cause at least I always know when you'll disappear.
I like the ones who make me lash out,
I scream until I shake.
I imagine that I'm telling you
How much I hate you
From beyond the grave.
Once I walk out that door
I can never come back home.
So I'll be the perfect burden,
'Cause I don't think I can do this on my own.
And it's not that I'm afraid,
Or incapable of change,
I just love you and I miss you,
And I'm tired of pretending that I don't.