Just Dandy - Denial Trial Lyrics

So here we are
You're next to me, bucket seated
Driving through this waking life while never looking forward
And I'm shaken up cuz everything's repeated
And though it's great to see your face inside this citadel, here's the problem
I can't stop wanting to kiss you
I can't stop wanting to hold your hand
It seems impossible to voice this, and I wish you could understand
I can't stop wanting to tell you
Can't stop wanting to speak, and not think
These words in me that are so restrained
But I'm too scared of lying, too nervous and neurotic...

Oh well here we go
It's my denial trial
And I can't tell you who you are

And if not for you, I could pay attention
Not lie awake, chewing through my nails
Trying to keep my mind off where you are
And how the hell you're doing
And finally find a way to end this shallow empty life
But here's the problem
I can't stop wanting to wake up
I can't stop wanting to see you there
Caught in a perfect time that I've tried to find
But now I can finally see the signs that spell out in black and yellow
THIS HAS ALL BEEN RANDOM
I'm caught up in a limbo of dreaming and having to see the one who can't see me

And if this it for me, this growing, dying tree
It's still my fault so I'll take the blame
This place has always stayed the same
The whole damn time you've been away
Always moving forward, always falling backward

It's a wonder I don't scream out loud
But even then I know you wouldn't hear the sound
You're miles away, with your own life on an island
And so I'll live and I'll regret until I finally drown into an ocean of sand
That distant desert is just an image
I've used to express a feeling that has long since lost its meaning