This one's for you Vickie, you
As I woke this morning, going through the motions
I sunk backward as the past rushed up to meet me and it all came back
The smell of cigarettes and trying not to puke over the side
Trying to hold in all the courage built up over that endless night
That burned my insides until I saw a familiar face
And if you leave right now and walk away
I won't follow you cuz' I'm not a f*ckin stalker
But I wish there was some way for you to stay
Or just some way for me to feel comfortable enough to say...
One look was all I needed to know that you fell as well into this backward limbo heaven hell
And I knew I might have a friend with whom I didn't have to pretend
This hopeful backward wandering
A struggler left pondering toward a distant vague sunset
And feeling impending regret
I'm sick of endless fantasies
And hope that someday we can be sitting on a little sofa
Watching tv drinking soda
Godammit I love you
I think I love you
I might just love you
I hope I love you