K1ng Eljay - I Don't Know Why I Wrote This Song Lyrics

I don't know why I wrote this verse
Maybe I'm sad or something
Maybe this is me
Finally thinking that
I need an outlet or
Some therapy or something
But this pen and paper free though
But not royalty
Forgot it comes with a fee though
Something to be said
About a K1NG with a team though
Even more when every time
He tries to elevate them all
They just up and flee though
Never once did he fleece those
That asked for his assistance a Little
But Bo peeped that they were Sheep, though
Dad called weekly
To tell me to vet the
People I called close
'Cause everybody can't go with me
I listened but
What that get me besides a reset
Creativity's draining
And the water's in recess
Trying to stay sharp every month
To avoid regress but
I would rather dead it
If I feel it isn't the best so
I don't know why I wrote this verse
So many other things to assess
I'm listening to my wife
Laugh and joke with her Mother
Meanwhile my Mama think
I'm a hellspawn at best
No such thing as normal convos,
They just end in her screaming
At me to come home more
Or being passive aggressive
To make me change my tone or
Bringing up some time that
I messed up, and wondering
Why the hell I don't phone more
Holding on to grudges
I don't quite have the time for
People dropping dead and yet
We mad again, what for
My homie Brian lost his Ma
So did KnightWolfe and Charm
But for some reason
Everything I do for mine is wrong
Maybe it's 'cause I dropped out
And never finished school
Maybe it's because i love to rap
And she don't think it's cool
Maybe it's because
When family asks what I do
She ain't been able to say proudly
What her K1NG has grown into
I don't know why I wrote this verse
I relate to all the stories
That Joe Budden been through
Crazy when you hear
The trials and tribulations and
Decisions he had to make but
Can't relate to his breakthrough
How many times I gotta reset
And do a take two
How many take twos you get
Before you end it all
How many times you end it
Before starting anew
What kind of hellish test
Am I putting my psyche through
How many times I gotta
Redefine my circle huh
How many nights I'm disappointed
Cause they sensitive
How many times I gotta
Learn to get thicker skin
How many people around me
I got that are depending
On me to make it
Sounds like flattery the way
They praise me, but
Once I can't create they get away from me
I understand there's purpose in the journey
But I hate to see the
Other side of me growing impatient
From waiting to make it
(Wait) this verse
I dunno why I wrote
(Hey) Maybe I'm
Hoping money can fix it
(Yay) As soon as I
Got an idea to get it
(Aye) And I do
But the stages are currently
In its infancy
And I know money can't fix everything
But the way I see it, it might
Because it has the ability
To ease my life and
Reassure my wife
That everything gon' turn out alright
And et my parents know they good
And taken care of for life
And then my friends that's still here
That come along for the ride
They get to say "I knew LJ
Before all the hype
Before he worked for seven years
Just to pop overnight"
It sounds nice to me, don't it
But right now it's like /
Almost three in the morning
But I'm up and still going/
And God's got it through it all
So I'mma still go in /
I know you heard this part before
But I'mma say it again /
You don't know what to expect do you
Just expect nothing less than the best
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