Kamp - CAN'T BE MAD IN HEAVEN Lyrics

And I'm still me
Swear the last two years been tryna kill me
They ain't really see what I been dealing with
Throw myself inside my head and f*cking seal me in
But I got my team to hold me down
High off this dream that maybe we could make it out
But it's teeming with my doubts
Can I lead 'em out the crowds
Will they hear me if I shout
What if I keep bleeding out, f*ck
It's cause I care too much
Guess I get it from my moms yuh
How you hit the gas inside the Honda? Lasting guilt beside her mantra
Wish I wasn't f*cking awful, I be off it all around her
You supposed to be role model
You so hostage to yo habits
Maybe if I quit 'em I'd be happy
But I'm too f*cking afraid to face my fears without my baggage
Guess I need a little damage control
Someone else to help me handle the load
Hoping you gon take my hand when I go

And it might of took you long enough to know this
I'm not tryna stunt I just want to be noted
Wanna cover that I'm broken
Try to move ahead and walk the line of Noah
Had to press the brakes and turn the other way
I'm too afraid of being open
I just wanted to be noticed
Cause it's every other day that you've been giving me the coldest
I lost my focus
I don't know what's gonna come so I keep a heater loaded
Cause every day is like a f*cking time lapse
I'm just tryna to make some f*cking time back
A way to move on, but I ain't even tryna find that
A thousand ways to hide that, knowin that's on me
Yeah, that's on me
War inside my mind that needs to be free
Should've been closer to the people I need
So I'll go and take the blame, cause that's on me

Ayo
Out the shadow of the valley of death
Time to add another tally while I'm counting my heads
The finale of the road, I bet they bow where I tread
Cause the sun is getting low on all you doubting the best
Tell me who you running with
Tell me who you trusting in
Tell me who you turning to when all the walls is coming in
I ain't worried
Dark days passed, and they still to come
But you can best believe that I just use the shit to build me up
Yeah, this ain't the last that you gon hear of me
Finished with the tears on my skin that been searing me
Antisocial extrovert, I ain't what I appear to be
Cause trust me bruh, I'm still surprising everybody near to me
Yeah, ion know where this will lead me
I know this shit got ups and downs and it ain't always easy
But I hope this music helping someone deal with all they demons
Cause I gotta figure God gave me this gift for a reason, Cog

I been through it all
Looking back on my past, I'm still standing tall
And ain't nobody really help along the way
I just knew that way before I could walk, I had to crawl
I really hate to see the picture gettin faded
But all the moments that we shared, I never trade it
We're getting older and we're growing apart
But the thought of you still in my mind
I couldn't shake it
I know I'll get to see the sunrise again
But if I close my eyes and then count to ten
Will you be there when I open them up
Cause I really wanna be by your side until the end
You were sent to answer all of my prayers
But I could see towards the end, you didn't care
And everybody knows you CAN'T BE MAD IN HEAVEN
So whenever this ride is up
I'll see you up there

Wasted days along my shoulders
Gotta look forward
Somethings aren't forward
And I can't wait
And I can't wait
Waitin on someone else
One, two, three, four
I'm trying to stay up top of myself
Leaving it up to chance
I can't stay the same
And I'm getting better
I'm getting better
I'm getting better