S.a.d Video (MV)

Sorry if this ain't sorry well let me apologize to you
Sorry don't fix shit it's just some sorry ass excuse
You quick to say you sorry cause you don't wanna hear the truth
What's a sorry from a sorry ass dude conflicted and confused

I can't even count how many times I'm disappointed and you bear with me
Heavy problem that wasn't yours if I lacked it it was there for me
Let down after let down it was never time you wasn't there for me
These memories of deeds I did I never thought you would care for me

Hoped that you care for me
Shit you promised that you'll always be there for me
I know I did it dirty about 30 times or more
So I can understand if you don't want me anymore
If I feel so guilty you look at me like I'm filthy

Every time I loved I felt the hate from it
I know you see it try your hardest not to say nothing
But shit I'm not the guy to tell you that I'll wait for you
It's not that I don't love you it's just not the way for me

But I'm willing to take it to the grave for you
And if there's nothing left to say you know I'll pray for you
Oh baby girl you know I'll pray for you
Just follow me and hope you escape from it

I pray
My baby mom's getting weary eyes start tearing
I know it hurts to love she had enough don't want me near her
How many excuses you gotta hear?
how many tears you gotta fight?

A lot of nights you want me there but out of mind and out of sight
Too many times you made it clear and I was saying it's alright
I'm first to stand for you I always felt misunderstood
Always said I can't for you and now if I ain't have it it's all good

You know that I love you and only time will tell you if it could
Just listen shit I live the life of full of conflictions
I hurt the ones that love me most I had problems with addictions
Held on to what was holding me close I can't even see what I was doing

Shit I'm blinded from all of the smoke I fear to go to sleep
But I can't complain when I'm awoke shit
Just call me a joke baby when you laughing your ass off
Ayy first off not no bishop or no priest or no pastor

You steady bringing up my past baby girl you know my past Hurt don't think you safe with these pass words
Shit you overdue it you wanna take it past worse
Then baby you a disaster for sure yeah baby let's go

I'm sorry baby that you done fell in love with a nigga like me
The love with a little of mine
But see what I did
Blow the horn
I need you to know I'm sorry

I never meant to do the things I've done