INSANE Video (MV)

This life is like a joke
Sometimes that shii scares me
Miss out on 1 2 3 4 days
Feel like you are losing
I'm on the winning team
But I'm not the best in running
So I work 5 6 7 8 days
Sometimes that shii is fire
Someone say my name
Save me from this pain
All these memories in my head will drive me Insane
Need Saving from myself
Been running for too long
All these memories in my head
Will drive me insane
Yo, I've been running for too long
I'm Working day and night
I think I'm doing this all wrong
Life got me down right now
Feels like a hit and run
Run it back play it back
Life done did a bunch
I remember few times I couldn't get lunch
In this book of life I think we're just pawns
Checkmating, heart racing hmm
Can anyone see where the end is
Living through life when
I need me in therapy
Day by day this life taking a part of me, pardon me
I don't think I want this for an eternity
Don't think I have the strength for this reality
I'm an entity
My space filled up with frenemies
Fatigue and I'll still keep up my energy
Pick a side are we friends or are we enemies
Y'all asking for trust but I need to know why you keep messing up
Enough is enough I'm done with these games I need me to wake up
Lately, it's feels like I'm dangling
Hanging by a thread mental health barely managing
Can't sleep the demons won't let me rest and
Physically my behaviour are getting challenging
These negative thoughts might be the death of me eventually
I thought about it carefully
But I see no way out for me
I'm crying out inaudibly
Still tryna find the part of me
That would be of help
And free me form the cage that's made for me
Black walls and white mistakes
Brushes out trying to wipe the stains
I try hard but it's all the same
Was happy now I'm sad again
I wish the pain would end
I wish I could be sane again
I Said a prayer now i think it's time
I said Amen
Oh lord, give me the grace to believe
When offenders come give me
The strength I'll forgive
Been praying all day and now
I need relief
From all these stress here I need to breathe
Need some space in my head
I Can't accept defeat
Need to live need to breathe
And Maybe find love while I'm at it
Need the money, need the bag
Need the gold
Need the fame
Need to be a beast that no man can tame
Learnt a lesson years back
Everything will fall in place if I
Work hard understand that
Things doesn't come easy
Just pray hard
Believe that
God is going to make it work out well
Still on that
Lately, my head got me believing
I'm high on something
Showing me dreams
Man I grind and run things
Telling me
That I'm more than I think
Tearing the fear I wear on my skin
Maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me
Maybe it's just my brain messing up with the shii I think
Showing me illusions
But I'm the boss of me
I'm not scared but
Speaking up sickens me
I'm sick of this world
I'm living in
I Just wanna go outside
Breathe it in
Maybe if I'm there I could
Finally win
But I never won
What's the point of it
Giving up is not a part of it
This life is like a joke
Sometimes that shii scares me
Miss out on 1 2 3 4 days
Feel like you are losing
I'm on the winning team
But I'm not the best in running
So I work 5 6 7 8 days
Sometimes that shii is fire
Someone say my name
Save me from this pain
All these memories in my head will drive me Insane
They'll drive me in No no no no
Drive me insane
All these memories in my head will drive me insane