Khoul - Desire Lyrics

Yeah
Hear this real quick
I used to wanna f*ck a lot of girls
When I was thirsting
Sitting in my highschool
Hormones bursting
Does something to you
When a bad shawty twerking
They was tryna trap
I won't cap, it was working
Head on straight
But a nigga wasn't perfect
Lust, even when
It's in check still lurking
Left, still hungry
But I learned it wasn't worth it
They couldn't have my seed
Cuz they ain't have purpose
They ain't have blinds
And they ain't have curtains
Pretty bald pussy
And a freak like circus
Looking like a pill
With them tts still perking
Urges had a nigga real nervous
Felt like I was swerving
On ice back then
Losing my grip
Getting caught in the wind
Sitting in the church
With a head full of sin
And tryna ask God
To forgive me again
Just give me a chance
Can't heal my sickness
But rapping ain't shit
If I don't pass this litmus
If desire's my mission
Can I say that that's the
Best place to put kid's in
Or is it the same position
I was raised in
When I longed to go missing
Leave home alone
And not even come visit
Cause I could feel the
Seams in the house
When they were splitting
Shit put me in submission
Growing up numb
Always feeling something missing
Never talked about it
Cuz the convo felt risky
And now I can't connect
When I'm talking to my Mrs
Cuz every talk feel iffy
Like running outta Chakra
As I walk on Mississippi
Consequence to it is
Nobody really get me
And she too afraid to trust
And get done like Ricky
Shit piles up
Now the situation sticky
Money looking funny
Can't pay the bills quickly
Feeling like I'm dying
As anxiety hits me
Now I'm chasing bread
Cuz I hate politicking
That's when I get to
Urging for release
Because living on my knees
Got me thinking on my feet
Bout the peeps who give in
And then decide to cheat
While my whole nervous system
Got me thinking with my -
If I did it I'd be foul for that
One night'll let the
Whole family down in fact
Staying solid, want my
Whole fam proud and black
Because my realest motivation
Is the child I'll have
I protect my neck and my legacy
Young black simba
Lift him up and imma let him see
Everything I built just for him
You can bet on me
Put it on God that I'll make sure
He's way ahead of me
So I got no time for the jealousy
F*ck a fake friend
I would rather have an enemy
Looking at the world
That they say the lord set us in
Shits feeling sick
Maybe music is the medicine
So I spit with no hesitance
Drug em with the melody
Just like an amphetamine
Tell a story raw
Bare it all when I set the scene
Ripping out my heart just to
Show you how my pencil is
As I sit and stencil it
My brain is inflamed
I can feel just how tense it is
Getting pissed off
Is my bodies way of sensing it
Baby I don't hate you
I just need time to tend to it
Cuz if I can't then I'm ending it
Music is my lifeline
I find friend in it
Lately my mental
Been swinging like a pendulum
Iceberg tip
My nigga this just the Genesis