Kid Kenzi - Still Lyrics

Still finding more about me when I'm all alone
Still got scars deep inside me that I never show
Still remember all the times where I felt I weren't enough
Think it changed me into someone I don't even know
Still have moments where I'm down and feeling misplaced
Still get nights where I think that I'm a mistake
Still got people asking me where I been at
Took a turn for the worse so I'll hit 'em back another day
I'm not the type of person that you want to keep too close
I've hurt people just as much as ones that hurt me most
Got both hands filled with my pride it's overflown
There's something inside of me that's trying to row the boat
Where I don't want to go, don't know where this road will take me
All I know is that the path I'm on will likely break me
And it's strange 'cause lately I just always keep on runnin'
From all of my problems even though I should've seen 'em comin'
I feel selfish if I put myself first, I feel pity if I put myself last
And y'all can see that I'm a walking contradiction
Always feeling so cursed
But I'm just hoping that this chapter will pass
And I been tryna go and get up out this hole now
The same one I put myself in but don't know how
If I could pile up my sins and my wrongs
And the pain that I have caused
Doubt I'd make it to the top, I'm just airing out my flaws, yeah
Still finding more about me when I'm all alone
Still got scars deep inside me that I never show
Still remember all the times where I felt I weren't enough
Think it changed me into someone I don't even know
Still have moments where I'm down and feeling misplaced
Still get nights where I think that I'm a mistake
Still got people asking me where I been at
Took a turn for the worse so I'll hit 'em back another day
I'm not a role model, I really don't coddle
Been feeling closer to the edge could down a whole bottle
To free myself of this poison that's been flowing in me
With another of toxin, maybe that won't leave me feeling empty
I used to dream that one day I would grow to be somebody
That would have a higher purpose and inspire hope
But lately I just look at myself in the mirror and wonder
Who would want to look up to me if I'm always trying to cope?
With all my selfish problems, I think I've hit the bottom
Been watching myself slowly fade away like leaves in Autumn
All the time, years been falling by, I been losing sleep
Lately I can't find the person that I used to be
And all these rainy clouds follow when I'm breaking down
But I pushed away the ones around me, who can save me now?
It's on me, can't put the blame on no one else
As I'm sinking in this hell, know I did this to myself, yeah
Still finding more about me when I'm all alone
Still got scars deep inside me that I never show
Still remember all the times where I felt I weren't enough
Think it changed me into someone I don't even know
Still have moments where I'm down and feeling misplaced
Still get nights where I think that I'm a mistake
Still got people asking me where I been at
Took a turn for the worse so I'll hit 'em back another day