Prayers Video (MV)

I love you Momma!
Sitting in this waiting room Awaiting news
Prayer to the roof Please god let her make it through
Feels like an hour every minute I'm scared but won't admit it
Shits testing my faith I'm at my limit
Drop to my knees let my tears flow freely
You can't take her I need her I sound greedy
Whisper in her ear as she sleeping
Don't you leave me I need you to see me
Grow to be a king Be man Take a knee
And give my wife a ring I know you're feeling weak
You probably hear them angels sing
But come back to my voice
I'm just your scared little boy Like when I was thirteen
And I was always into trouble Drinking and smoking
And more than one time too I know I left your heart broken
But your door was always open Unconditional love
I remember all of your pain while I was using drugs
When I thought I was a thug Tagging with my pants sagging
But I ain't bragging I'm just speaking on what happened
Did your best to keep us happy See Christmas was magic
I hate the day the doctor gave you bad news It was tragic
It felt like such a disaster Like my world just shattered
It's like the rest of the problems in my life just didn't matter
Time started moving faster but I need it to slow down
Wanted to be strong but I didn't know how
So I broke down Smoked out and put it on a page
Used my anger in my lyrics Not to bottle my rage
Fuzed my dream with my pain Now all I need is a stage
Took a bottle to the face and lit up my purple haze
I just wanted to escape But I can't drift away
In the face of insanity there's no way I'd complain
Tears falling like rain I can't help you I feel ashamed
So I close my eyes and cry And let the angels sing away as I pray
Dear God
I just want to say that I know that you're there
And you've been watching over me
You've been guiding me step by step along this journey in my life
And I can't tell you how much I appreciate
All the strength you've giving me All the courage
All the blessings
I thank you so much!
I love you Pops
Pops life was struggle working five to nine
And every day of the year That man would rise and grind
Until his liver started failing Had the yellow in his eyes
Hepatitis and psoriasis at the same damn time
Ever said that I was fine It was f*cking lie!
I swear just to get by I was so f*cking high
Probably would've been easy to give up and die
But my family needed me I got up and tried
Hid the pain in my eyes I disguised it well
Will my Pops make it through surgery? Only time will tell
It felt like had them failed them when I dropped out
Although I never heard it out my moms or pop's mouth
I knew that they were proud I knew that they loved me
I knew that I was lucky Shit I knew that they trusted me
I hate that I stole I'm so f*cking disgusted
It's a sensitive subject I don't want to discuss it
Because nobody's perfect but my Pops did his best
Working sixteen hour days on five hours rest
For a while I was depressed All my feelings repressed
Like a weight up on my chest and I just need to catch my breath
Seen them roll my dad away on a surgery bed
I'll see you when I wake up Last words that he said
Now we waiting in the lobby Bunch of nervous wrecks
And it's so hard to express what goes through your head
When reality sets Could be your last goodbye
Just because that you're dying Doesn't mean that you'll die
When you open your eyes I'll be right here by your side
If you see death coming You better put up a fight
Make it back to your family Stay away from the light
I ain't leaving the hospital l Nah I'm staying the night
Got me praying to the skies Everything will be alright
Asking God please Please Save my father's life
I been walking back and forth down this hospital hallway
Feels like I been waiting round here all day
With my family by my side as we all wait
For my Pops to wake up The surgery went great
And I pray
If you got family in your life Hold on to them
Cuz that's a blessing
If you got a dollar in your pocket Hold on to it
Cuz that's a blessing
If you got a smile on you face Don't let nobody take that away from you
Cuz that's a blessing
Be blessed