Tossing and turning all night
Nothing but screams fill my mind
I can't sleep no i can't dream
Feels like the devils steady coming after me
And my family has just disowned me
Cannot believe my family has just disowned me
This can't be what life is like
I got a girl whose cheating on me
And she's lying to me about everything
Then I've got a baby pinned on me
Accused of sleeping with a chick that i haven't seen
People trying to have me killed
So much stuff going on that it gives me chills
Feels like there's only one thing to do now
Gotta break from this misery somehow forreal
And now i'm playing Russian roulette with a revolver without a name
And my family's calling me insane
Because this depression's taking control of me
Clouding my judgment about everything
So i jump
I jump, yeah
As death comes for me
Staring into my grave
I'm starting to think
That there's no other way
To peace but suicide (Suicide)
I've tried everything to ease my mind
Contemplating suicide (Suicide)
With no one by my side
I'm facing suicide (Suicide)
Can someone help me please
Help me from suicide (Suicide)
Suicide, Suicide
Bottle after bottle
Smoking 97 full throttle
Steady trying not to topple
Over talking
Over thinking
Wondering
What's the meaning of life
Should i run or should i fight (Oh no this can't be life)
I've got an devil on one shoulder with an angel on the other
Causing me to fight my brother's
With so much hatred for my mother
My hearts turned to stone trying to find my way back home
But the misery only grows there's no sedative for my soul
Ran to my pastor he said just pray don't even worry
Whatever the problem Jesus will fix it in a hurry
Transparent moment even his words on Sunday morning
No matter how true it doesn't stop my soul from mourning
Tear clouded eyes immortal lies and tormented cries
Infatuation with the other side is my alibi
I prayed for change
And this change has left me so deranged
No matter how strong i'm shown i'm just a mortal man, God
As death comes for me
Staring into my grave
I'm starting to think
That there's no other way
To peace but suicide (Suicide)
I've tried everything to ease my mind
Contemplating suicide (Suicide)
With no one by my side
I'm facing suicide (Suicide)
Can someone help me please
Help me from suicide (Suicide)
Suicide, Suicide